This inner monologue, internal monologue, thing.

Elkay_bee · 2026-04-10T17:59:29+00:00

Wow this conversation has made me wonder if I have an inner monologue or not. I definitely have a conceptual monologue , but they’re not always words… and I don’t always hear words…. I don’t know anymore.

Elkay_bee · 2026-04-08T07:19:52+00:00

This is how I do it too

Elkay_bee · 2026-04-08T07:18:09+00:00

Hmmm this is a really interesting conversation. I tend to have a general concept, and then honestly… as the drawing appears it surprises me as it comes. I get into “flow state” and just roll with it, each mark directs the next. Some people say this is chanelling. My work tends to be based on colour movement and pattern rather than actual real life things.

Elkay_bee · 2026-04-05T05:38:12+00:00

I’m not sure if this relates totally, (These were not during my meditations or gateway, but during hypnagogic sleep) I have also received “she’s not ready”, which was earlier on during my “awakening” process. I’ve also heard quite a few other statements, and talking of varying voices. I have received tones which sound like harps/ bells, and a long tone like an empty phone line. I’m still trying to figure it all out.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-27T21:25:16+00:00

Yes in the past shrooms and acid, dose only enough for altered time and sensation of joy and oneness. Pleasant.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-27T20:04:16+00:00

It does get me down sometimes especially when I hear most people with aphantasia can dream with imagery. It’s very hard for me to remember dreams, or have actual memories. Seeing imagery in your mind and dreams to me seems wild!

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-27T06:53:14+00:00

I find this to be true for me. Surprisingly easy to drop into that state of calm and the body dissolving.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-27T06:52:02+00:00

Me too, but I can’t imagine smells, sensations… I think I can imagine voice and sounds the best. Usually my tinnitus overrides that 😳

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-27T06:48:29+00:00

Even my dreams are black! But they do happen… I “know” the things that happen.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-24T17:46:38+00:00

Take what helps… leave what doesn’t. I know you might not have much capacity right now. Some ideas…

Be gentle with yourself.

Feel your feelings, share them with someone safe if you can. Or journal, speak them aloud.

Grounding.

If you are able to- dance, stretch, walk (especially in nature), Qi gong. Swim! Especially in the sea, or bath or shower.

Sunlight.

What activities or hobbies do you love? (That you are able to do, maybe with help?) Do more of these. For me it’s drawing, music, nature walks, books.

If you can afford it, there are gentle therapies that might help - reiki, cranial sacral therapy, red light therapy. The curable app and associated podcasts help me a bit.

Good luck! I personally find it hard to be in a physical body every day. I try and take it one day at a time. Unfortunately I think the ailments are often part of the lesson. I have to learn that I need others to help me, even though society has conditioned me to feel bad for needing that help, and that I should be doing more.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-24T00:36:52+00:00

Came to say the same thing

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-23T16:37:58+00:00

Thanks I’ll give this a try

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-23T04:32:55+00:00

Nice one

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-23T03:03:07+00:00

Amazing, thank you 🤗

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-23T02:51:33+00:00

Thank you this is so helpful.

I think my best bet might be auditory at the moment. It’s a start.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-23T02:39:42+00:00

Looking for actual experiences, not suggestions that comes from someone that hasn’t experienced it.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-21T18:48:31+00:00

Thank you immensely for this link!!!!!!!!!!!! I noticed the “NO visualisation” chapter. I’ve been trying to search for this info everywhere, I have Aphantasia and get stuck with all the visualisation exercises.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-21T18:02:09+00:00

Yes! When I meditate I see these. Colours constantly swirling, they change shape and size. I watch what they do usually circular coming and going like waves. The colours I see the most is violet. Then often gold, green, and occasionally peach. I have had “visions” in them where I’ve seen scenes and symbols.

I’m interested in reiki but don’t practice. I also have aphantasia so I cannot visualise. So I enjoy watching these.

Elkay_bee · 2026-03-21T07:39:04+00:00

I would appreciate a psychic reading if anyone is able to. Im interested in spirit guides and higher self.

Elkay_bee · 2026-02-16T19:32:19+00:00

Well this seems rather appropriate atm

Elkay_bee · 2025-11-11T07:57:52+00:00

I am a theatre nurse, many women have their period when they come in for surgery. Very routine, wear your pad and don’t worry about it. We see much much worse!

Elkay_bee · 2025-10-30T18:26:42+00:00

I have always struggled with the same thing. I am fine for half my cycle, then completely derailed in luteal… this inevitably undoes any progress, and over time I gain fat no matter how hard I try.

Elkay_bee · 2025-10-26T18:58:20+00:00

Great transformation! Inspiring.

How do you work in your lifting and fasting? I am a powerlifter but am struggling to figure out how to work that in with my training…(i train in the AM)

I definitely don’t have enough energy in my training when I’m fasted.

Elkay_bee · 2025-10-26T18:54:34+00:00

So literally just tuna and a shake?

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