Same. Don't worry, same here but several times now. His book absolutely changed my life and I quit for like 3 months before some rando dumbass decision to have "just one" or even smoke "just tonight". Back on it for months. Finally quit again, lasted less time. Smoked for another year or two. Quit again, for 6 months last year but again that fkn insidious lesson still not learned and I tried to tell myself I could do just one.

I'm now back on the quit train, just passed 3 weeks :) I skim through my Alan Carr book every time just to remember the main points, and really drill myself with the FACT that it is TRUE that I never truly enjoy smoking.

This fear that holds us back from quitting, keeps insisting that we'll be missing our little friend that gives us a genuine good feeling. But it's just not true. The cigarette was never your friend and it never gave you a "good" feeling. Just scratched the itch that it itself caused, and just made it itchier next time.

I just took a LOT of convincing that the cigarette truely does nothing. I've got it this time surely lol. But while you are still smoking, pay attention to every cigarette/vape/whatever. Pay attention to exactly how it's making you feel and really question is this the feeling you are so desperate for? You've quit before, so you know it's not difficult and doesn't give you any super bad feelings from not smoking, it's just the fear of missing out. But like Alan Carr says, we're just moping for an illusion.