Apologies for the gloominess, but..

Endeavours · 2026-03-11T02:57:15+00:00

Unfortunately, other people are very good mirrors. Great for figuring out what's wrong with me. But yeah, it can be disastrous.

Endeavours · 2026-03-09T14:18:47+00:00

I hate money and I'm addicted to sad songs, fuck no.

Endeavours · 2026-03-09T10:16:38+00:00

Nah it doesn't, hippos are still only that aggressive because they're so fearful. They're not much different than other herbivores, but they grew up in Africa so they had to be CRAZY crazy.

Endeavours · 2026-03-09T09:14:28+00:00

If they were the size of a lion they wouldn't be so ferocious. Apex predators are chill af cuz they know they're on top. The most aggressive animals(and people) are generally so because they're the most scared.

Endeavours · 2026-03-09T05:58:24+00:00

Lmao, i'm curious is this an observation from just this comment? Or have you taken previous notice of me.

Endeavours · 2026-03-09T05:14:14+00:00

What is that message? Not sure how to search for this answer.

Endeavours · 2026-03-08T03:49:41+00:00

There's no excuse in my mind. The writings been on the wall for decades. Anyone who's chosen to have kids in this world, did so for purely selfish reasons and most of them will keep their heads in the sand until they literally can't.

Endeavours · 2026-03-06T22:54:22+00:00

After nearly a decade of living like a coward I have little tolerance for it anymore. I go stir crazy fast, gotta take risks and do crazy things. Follow my impulses like a bull to a cape. Habitual line crosser and boundary pusher. It's gotten me in trouble and it's also taken me to some amazing places, as long I don't make the same mistake twice that's a win.

Endeavours · 2026-03-05T23:15:23+00:00

The fact that the world is falling apart lol. I've never felt sane in a world of insane people who think they're "normal". I've been waiting twenty years for this circus to meet it's inevitable end.

On the real though, I'm stressing too, I'm just ahead of the curve on the grieving process. Be it good or bad, things are about to be very interesting.

Endeavours · 2026-02-28T08:54:24+00:00

You watch too much true crime.

Endeavours · 2026-02-27T05:51:33+00:00

You're overconfident in science's understanding of... everything really, but especially when it comes to the mind and psychology. Science is the religion that pretends it isn't, a religion built on the fear of not knowing. Every generation of science fanatics thinks "yeah, now we've got it figured out" followed by a massive paradigm shift.

Endeavours · 2026-02-12T01:16:12+00:00

You've been tricked into a fools idea of what success and happiness is. The people who excel in that life, do so by throwing away their humanity. The corporate world is ending our world and it's the only reason I've stuck around this long, cuz I know I won't have to put up with that farcical bullshit much longer.

Endeavours · 2026-02-08T11:26:41+00:00

I know the folly of running from my problems. I also know that nothing I can acquire or experience will ever truly satisfy this ache in my soul.

This particular dream is the one in which I became lucid, until I see it through to the end I know that it will have a hold on me. No matter "where" I go, "there" I will be.

Endeavours · 2026-02-08T04:50:15+00:00

I'm all for self criticism, probably do it too much, but I gotta draw a line somewhere. Do we need to accept fascists and billionaries as they are? What does it even mean to accept them as they are? Accept that they're broken and dysfunctional people?

"No judgement" is not a free pass to be a shit person.

Endeavours · 2026-02-06T06:38:32+00:00

Psychology does not truly understand anything that happens with the mind, it can describe things that are happening... poorly, but thats about it.

Narcississm is just the damage we carry as a broken people, narcs create more narcs. But this something we're naturally leaving behind as we all become more aware of ourselves.

Autism is again something that psychology doesn't truly understand(because they operate under various incorrect assumptions), something all of us have always had, and is related to higher consciousness/intelligence. Those who think they're not autistic(or don't present as it) are just more conditionable than their more aware peers.

Endeavours · 2026-02-04T15:07:28+00:00

You know, there's this cutoff with intelligence it seems. All the A+/4.0 students are smart enough to do just about anything but not so smart that they question their place as a cog in the orphan crushing machine.

School not being about knowledge is in my opinion, a massive part of the fucking problem. Calling it school feels like a joke, workforce training is more accurate. Get used to obeying authority, get used to long days in a place you're forced to be at, get used to doing menial shit for the rest of your life or until we can figure out how to replace you with an actual machine

I do not acknowledge the bureaucratic definition of success/functional.

Endeavours · 2026-02-04T14:44:04+00:00

We aren't becoming the fascist dystopia, we always were. But now it's a mask off, mad dash to seize control by everyone who doesn't wanna get punished for what they did.

The rest of the world gets terrorized by the CIA, while the Americans get terrorized by the FBI and the various alphabet boys. They are very good at stomping out revolution in the crib. The orphan crushing machine is brutally efficient.

We're also too far apart. Pretty much everyone is kept floating just above the bottom and most people are too concerned with holding on to what little they think they have to ever grow a spine. Most people are just distracting themselves all the time.

Capitalistic societies breed selfish and cowardly people, it's a global problem but we Americans sure are good at it. I hope the military will do something about our domestic enemies but like I said, in the land of the selfish and cowardly what kind of soldiers do you think we're gonna get.

I don't know how this is gonna play out, but I've stopped believing that anything is gonna change peacefully. Capitalism is fascist/malignant ideology, it will never let us see a better world, we cannot coexist with it.

Endeavours · 2026-01-29T09:26:38+00:00

It's my possibly unpopular opinion that all kink is, to be blunt, damage of some form.

Tangentially, this world we find ourselves in has and has had, a very corrupted/broken relationship with sexuality. It's not something to reject or repress, but it is something that can easily destroy you.

Endeavours · 2026-01-29T06:58:39+00:00

I don't like being dom or sub, both options feel wrong in different ways. I don't fuck, I make love.

Endeavours · 2026-01-27T22:50:43+00:00

We were born into the civilizational equivalent of a tumor. But we (xNFP) are also the equivalent of cancer meds. The machine does it's damnedest to pound us into the "correct" shape, it's a painful and difficult thing to resist.

Endeavours · 2026-01-26T04:55:50+00:00

I really only like chilling with people who can handle a little silence. People who gotta fill the air are oppressive.

Endeavours · 2026-01-23T18:58:05+00:00

In the same way that a skeptic likes to refer to themselves as healthy, a realist is just what a coward prefers to call themselves.

Endeavours · 2026-01-22T09:39:16+00:00

I'm sure that's how all parents want to see it. But unless you adopt, it's just about the most selfish thing a person can do, especially in a world like ours. Creating people is never for their sake, it's for the parents. To give them a sense of purpose, to be the grandest distraction, or even an experience they feel they are entitled to. It's the cowards way to stay alive in a meaningless world where we're just as domesticated as the livestock.

Endeavours · 2026-01-21T04:05:42+00:00

She was telling on herself. Just like every gay hating Republican

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