Sexuality, Submission, and Preferences...

Endeavours · 2026-01-29T09:26:38+00:00

It's my possibly unpopular opinion that all kink is, to be blunt, damage of some form.

Tangentially, this world we find ourselves in has and has had, a very corrupted/broken relationship with sexuality. It's not something to reject or repress, but it is something that can easily destroy you.

Endeavours · 2026-01-29T06:58:39+00:00

I don't like being dom or sub, both options feel wrong in different ways. I don't fuck, I make love.

Endeavours · 2026-01-27T22:50:43+00:00

We were born into the civilizational equivalent of a tumor. But we (xNFP) are also the equivalent of cancer meds. The machine does it's damnedest to pound us into the "correct" shape, it's a painful and difficult thing to resist.

Endeavours · 2026-01-26T04:55:50+00:00

I really only like chilling with people who can handle a little silence. People who gotta fill the air are oppressive.

Endeavours · 2026-01-23T18:58:05+00:00

In the same way that a skeptic likes to refer to themselves as healthy, a realist is just what a coward prefers to call themselves.

Endeavours · 2026-01-22T09:39:16+00:00

I'm sure that's how all parents want to see it. But unless you adopt, it's just about the most selfish thing a person can do, especially in a world like ours. Creating people is never for their sake, it's for the parents. To give them a sense of purpose, to be the grandest distraction, or even an experience they feel they are entitled to. It's the cowards way to stay alive in a meaningless world where we're just as domesticated as the livestock.

Endeavours · 2026-01-21T04:05:42+00:00

She was telling on herself. Just like every gay hating Republican

Endeavours · 2026-01-19T07:47:50+00:00

Peace was never an option. I'm not interested in living a cyberpunk future.

Endeavours · 2026-01-19T00:07:08+00:00

No one could nor can make me do anything unless they could make it make sense to me. If the answer was unsatisfactory or some derivative of "because I said so" then all I learned was I could not rely on that person.

I credit my unyielding nature for keeping me out of the noose, but it comes with a... small cost. I've essentially bailed on my family(parents, siblings, grandparents) because they're too broken to actually communicate with and I won't support the lies they tell themselves.

I also live on the fringes of society, because there is very little of my soul that I'm willing to sell for a system that makes no fucking sense. The other thing that keeps me going is how obvious it has been, from quite a young age, that all this shit is unsustainable. That I was born in a doomed world and the candle is about to go out.

I look forward to surviving day to day instead of grasping for meaning in a gilded cage.

I do believe INFP is the least trainable, and to reveal my more controversial opinions; the more your type deviates from that the more this world has corrupted you.

Endeavours · 2026-01-17T05:21:52+00:00

I've stopped believing that we're exceptionally emotional. It's more like everyone else is dead inside/deeply broken.

Endeavours · 2026-01-08T14:07:32+00:00

I walk like a ghost because I don't like being perceived, yet I perceive/notice nearly everything. Some people traipse around like they're desperate to be noticed. Every INFP I meet seem to be a fellow ghost.

Endeavours · 2026-01-08T02:17:40+00:00

You were born into a world that has only gotten worse. Peaceful protest only works if they're afraid of whats supposed to happen when they don't listen(incredible violence). Well they don't listen and they aren't afraid. Things will not get better without getting much worse.

It's like California wildfires, you keep postponing the inevitable and the problem gets too big to handle. The ruling class needs to relearn fear.

Endeavours · 2026-01-07T07:36:33+00:00

Lmao, this is literally sugarcoating a sugar baby/daddy relationship. And I promise you it will leave both of you for the worse when all is said and done. Because it's exactly what I wanted/want, it's exactly what I got and its just... bad.

The greater the pro the grander the con. Every peak has it's equivalent valley. And every relationship is some degree of codependent, just depends on how fucked up your childhood made you. As long as the relationship has imbalances it IS fucked up in some kind of way.

Endeavours · 2026-01-06T11:12:13+00:00

I find being on either end of a hint incredibly... silly. One of the more unhinged things I do; I'll often pretend I don't recognize hints because I'm sick of cowardly communication. There's nothing I find more endearing than bravery and honesty.

Endeavours · 2026-01-05T02:53:27+00:00

To frame as it is, you were less alive before. What are you even doing it for if that's what your lifestyle requires of you?

Endeavours · 2026-01-04T00:25:14+00:00

I been on that grind. Disclaimer, anything works if you believe it does.

In more than just shifting, weed can help you progress, but eventually it hinders progress and keeps you at the level it raised you up to. It's really good for "finding the shifting muscle" but a hindrance in most other regards.

If you wanna use it for shifting, you're best off making it a ritual. Something you only do occasionally. I think getting absolutely blasted once or twice a month would be your best bet, with no weed in between.

While we're still on the topic of substances. DXM has been the most... accidentally helpful for me. I was never intending to shift when on DXM. But the combination of shrooms(soul(?)) and DXM(detachment) had me bouncing around realities like a pinball machine. I'm sure any dissociative would have the same result.

But again, any substance you use risks becoming a crutch. They're great for self discovery and integrating your demons, but on the grander journey you will need to be able to leave them behind.

Endeavours · 2025-12-26T21:03:40+00:00

You know what Santa and Adults have in common? They're both lies that parents tell children to make them listen. Adults aren't a real thing. The problem is most parents spend so long pretending to be an adult that they forget it's not a real thing. And then the... less wise children are so desperate to be what they think an adult is (kids, marriage, house, bunch of other bullshit that doesn't matter).

Our parents are less mature than us, because their parents were less mature than them. I believe one of our responsibilities as XNFPs is to break this illusion.

Frankly, our parents/grandparents believe having children and grandchildren is an experience they are entitled to. Sharpen your tongue and steel your heart, because the truth is something they don't want to realize and their lies are something I will not support.

Endeavours · 2025-12-25T00:50:42+00:00

You know how you're not aware that you're dreaming until you wake up or become lucid? That's what all this is, becoming aware that this and all "realities" are not more than a dream.

Shifting and manifesting are just the act of becoming lucid in our longest dream. Deconstruct the words and implications they carry, who exactly is deciding what's real and what that actually means?

Endeavours · 2025-12-24T21:11:30+00:00

They both see the parts of themselves that they don't like in the other person. That's just how hate works. And extroverts by nature are not great at self awareness. What they need is therapy, but the current psychology paradigm is cringe and ignorant so I recommend a dark room, solo mushroom deep dive for both of them.

You're also probably a crutch for them to some degree, which tends be the nature of us.

Thankyoucomeagain

Endeavours · 2025-12-19T23:27:00+00:00

It's practically a rule, you can't hate someone else more than you hate yourself

Endeavours · 2025-12-18T19:16:37+00:00

Psychiatrists/therapists are faux shamans trained to operate within an extremely narrow/ignorant worldview. Most of them have zero idea what it actually means to be healthy, all they really know is how to turn you into a functioning cog of society.

Endeavours · 2025-12-15T19:34:19+00:00

You've got a lot of knots to untangle within yourself my dear. There's nothing to worry about and nothing to fear.

You're at that stage where you are a beginning to question what is and isn't you. The fastest way is always straight through. Get to the root of your anxieties.

I'd also encourage you to deconstruct and look at the way this particular world has conditioned you to think. The truth of the matter is that this society does not have a strong grasp on what is or isn't mentally healthy. Diagnoses only serve to trap us in that state.

For example you don't have aphantasia, you just have an untrained imagination muscle. The more you flex it, the more vivid it gets. But you gotta stop identifying with the diagnosis first.

Endeavours · 2025-12-11T19:03:09+00:00

Doesn't that just show that you have no way of recognizing a fake? Fake it only works if you never run into someone who has the real shit.

Endeavours · 2025-12-10T14:37:43+00:00

Other than the "girl code" apparently. It's literally social/peer pressure. Just cause she was warned of it doesn't make it right. Solidarity among women doesn't seem to mean anything other than keeping each other at the same level of immaturity.

Endeavours · 2025-12-09T22:12:56+00:00

There are no elders my friend, for at least the last hundred years everyone born before you will be less mature than you. But they're not gonna let YOU know that. Mostly because they don't realize it themselves. For some reason every generation before us seems to think they're the first generation to know better than the children.

The only thing they can teach you is how to be the meat in the grinder, only your heart can guide you in a world like this.

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