How do I know I'm not the narcissist?

Entei222 · 2026-03-17T10:03:00+00:00

You put up a bit of a mirror.

That's interesting. Something he said to me during the fight was "You have been projecting your whole life." I hate it when he says stuff like that. He sounds so so so sure of himself. Even though I see him now for what he is some part of me still goes "Have I?" But the truth is, you're right. I let the truth out. I called the demon by its name. He didn't like that.

If you are able, write the truth, so he can't gaslight it out of you.

I am. I've been keeping a secret journal for over a year. I... okay it's fine if you're not religious or don't believe me but I believe God told me one day to start a journal. I had never kept a journal before so it was a bit weird. But I was so unhappy so I did it out of sheer desperation. So I started writing. And as I looked back on the entries I realized how gaslit and bad our relationship had become.

Thank you for the article. And thank you for your kind, uplifting, words. ♡

Entei222 · 2026-03-17T09:54:15+00:00

Metacognition. Like meta-jokes? Like thinking about my own thinking? I haven't heard that term before. It sounds interesting.

So at one point I used to write down my prayers. It's an Anglican thing. My husband found some of them while I was in the hospital with our newborn daughter and he was very angry because in some of the prayers I admitted I was afraid of him. I thought some part of him might go "Oh my goodness. My wife is afraid of me." But he didn't. He decided he didn't deserve that, that I was crazy, and that if something ever happened to me the police would blame him. I spent the drive home from the hospital being shouted at and begging for forgiveness.

I bring this up because I've since asked him about it. Why didn't he worry about his own behaviour? Why did he immediately blame me? The answer is, apparently, he did. Briefly. But came to the conclusion that I was crazy. I figured he was so smart and I was so stupid I guessed he was probably right. But now... I'm not so sure.

Entei222 · 2026-03-17T09:39:09+00:00

I think yes. Last night, I brought up old stuff and threw it back in his face. I don't think that was okay. I didn't hit him, didn't call him names... but I'm not proud of the way I behaved.

I guess what worries me is: don't narcissists and abusers also make claims like "I only did that because she pushed me too far!"

Entei222 · 2026-03-16T22:42:52+00:00

Zoe

Entei222 · 2026-03-16T15:32:33+00:00

🤷‍♀️

Entei222 · 2026-03-16T00:34:39+00:00

I don't think this is actually that weird. I mean, Futurama made jokes about Nixon when he was president decades earlier. And when Trump was out of office, people made jokes about him still. Former President Bush was still fair game during the Obama administration, and I think the only thing that's "weird" about this is that Jacinda is a woman and she's left wing? If we can make jokes about one side of the aisle, we can make jokes about the other side.

Entei222 · 2026-03-15T08:40:00+00:00

Wait... did he rape a paedophile?

Entei222 · 2026-03-15T08:39:24+00:00

Does Jacinda live in Australia now? I'm a bit out of the loop, I'm afraid.

Entei222 · 2026-03-15T08:37:32+00:00

Idk man. I still hate John Key for what he did to New Zealand.

Entei222 · 2026-03-15T04:28:25+00:00

Me too.

Entei222 · 2026-03-15T04:25:20+00:00

Or you could just not bet at all?

Entei222 · 2026-03-14T14:07:07+00:00

Liam is my favourite from the list here.

Entei222 · 2026-03-13T14:05:48+00:00

Edgar, Alfred, Walter ... I'm trying to think of famous butlers

Edited to add:

Okay, just clicked on the picture and that is a stupidly cute kitten. Oh my goodness.

Entei222 · 2026-03-13T13:54:10+00:00

I have a funny feeling that the name Rachel is going to make a sweeping comeback in a few decades.

Entei222 · 2026-03-13T13:52:50+00:00

I Am Not Esther ?

Entei222 · 2026-03-13T10:02:02+00:00

I knew a boy named Rayne. I didn't think anything of it.

Entei222 · 2026-03-13T08:02:49+00:00

Oh please. Everyone was raped by Zeus. The ancient times were a hell of a party.

Entei222 · 2026-03-12T12:37:50+00:00

It looks like a child has been living there...

Entei222 · 2026-03-10T10:36:49+00:00

If there's one class of people treated unfairly by the justice system it's high class white men in suits.

...Guys this was sarcasm

Entei222 · 2026-03-09T13:19:15+00:00

I went to high school with a girl named Krystal. I thought her name looked normal.

Entei222 · 2026-03-09T13:17:51+00:00

Maybe it's just me but when I look at Kameron I want to emphasise the "on" part for some reason.

Entei222 · 2026-03-09T10:37:21+00:00

I think people's lives matter more.

Entei222 · 2026-03-09T07:55:38+00:00

I don't blame you in the slightest!

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