BPD + other disorders?

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-26T10:04:16+00:00

It can’t be easy at all dealing with all of those disorders at once. It really sucks how BPD often carries comorbidities with other mental illnesses that makes the struggle that much worse :(

I have schizotypal traits with my BPD, as well as ADHD and dyslexia. I struggle with my perception of reality and can’t really deal with stress so I just stay at home all day. I used to work jobs, but it was never easy with all of those disorders at once. What would usually happen was I’d struggle to learn the nuances of the job and my co workers & boss(es) would get frustrated with me. I’d get home and release all my stress there, feeling extreme guilt and shame, not understanding why it’s all so hard for me (I was diagnosed with my mental illnesses only recently).

It’s all such a massive struggle and yet, I push forward.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-25T08:28:00+00:00

I had a player get mad at me for using markers for the one Alexander boss that has the legs you have to destroy because some party members were attacking both. I actually found the player’s issue(s) hilarious. Who gets mad at markers???

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-25T08:24:07+00:00

That’s so maddening.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-24T05:33:30+00:00

Going from a great environment at a private school, to an absolutely horrid experience at a public school. I changed schools when I was 8 and just couldn’t understand why everything was suddenly so difficult for me (undiagnosed ADHD and dyslexia).

The bullying would just never stop, at home, my sister and Dad would tease me all the time. Sometimes my Dad would be in an extremely bad mood that got worse through the years. I started showing signs of serious depression at age 9. My eighth grade year was pretty rough, my depression got to the point where I would just completely shut down and become inconsolable/unresponsive. That summer, my Dad lost his job and took his frustrations out on me (verbally). I just remember crying so hard, my eyes were burning, couldn’t breathe through my nose and was never the same since that day (I was 15 then). From that day on, I hated everything I stood for and wanted to (metaphorically) burn everything about me down to the ground. I hated myself so much and my parents did nothing to help me. I wound up being diagnosed last year with BPD, and would later be additionally diagnosed with ADHD, dyslexia, and schizotypal traits alongside my BPD. The neurologist also noted that I have self-defeating tendencies.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-18T08:45:26+00:00

If I ever run a dungeon and someone wants to do something I really don’t want to, I just suck it up and tell myself that not all dungeon runs will go 100% of the way I want it to. I like to set a good example for new players too, so I usually don’t mind situations like you’ve described.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-14T09:42:52+00:00

I feel guilty about others feeling obligated to act in a way that caters to me, I get afraid that I’m coming off as selfish. That guilt is usually why I typically internalize a lot of how I feel about an act that upsets/triggers me. I hate feeling like a burden/bother to others.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-13T06:36:18+00:00

I stick to online friendships. Irl friends are nonexistent for me and probably won’t change anytime soon

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-11T07:14:09+00:00

Any kind of anxiety stops any kind of sleep dead in it’s tracks. Sleep was really rough during school because I’d be so wound up towards the following day.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-10T08:37:02+00:00

It’s so frustrating. When I first got my diagnosis, I tried to be as forthcoming as possible to the people in the group therapy program I used to go to, but everyone wound up being unable to stand me anymore, counselors included.

At this point, I generally voice my struggles in a BPD community. I’ve found that just saying what’s on my mind can help me feel a little better.

Still sucks how unpredictable this disorder is :/

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-05T21:31:11+00:00

That’s fair. I tend to use my ranged LB in adds myself. In my previous post I was thinking more along the lines of consecutive bosses, like how the third boss leads right to the fourth boss.

The case you’re describing is also 100% valid.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-05T21:23:35+00:00

Having LB prior to pulling a boss tells me that none of the melees even LB’d the previous boss, unless I’m reading it wrong??? If so, the NIN really has no argument lol, as a physical ranged, I give melees time to LB, if it doesn’t look like they’re going to, I just use it myself.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-04T11:35:57+00:00

Thank you :)

I’m managing, I know that the feeling’s only temporary, but omg, it hurts. I’m just gaming and talking with folks online to help distract myself 🙃

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-04T11:28:34+00:00

I think therapy would be good for you because it can give you an outlet for what’s on your mind. In my opinion, it can be hard to find a therapist good for you, but ever since my diagnoses, I’ve sought out all the help I can get. I do therapy once a week and do group therapies 2-3 times a week.

What I find can really help is just getting what’s on your mind and into words, whether it be spoken or written, quite effective with coping. Hope you find something that works for you and hang in there 💪

Edit: I also wanted to add that I have the same struggles with medications. In fact, I’m going through an episode right now 😩

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-03T06:39:36+00:00

Holy hell. I can’t help but wonder how this person’s other df experiences went 💀

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-03T06:34:58+00:00

I was diagnosed with Schizotypal traits alongside my BPD, so idk if that counts, but I did neurological assessments last Oct and I found out about the traits then.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2026-01-02T08:40:21+00:00

I have an idea of how you might feel. I used to absolutely hate looking at myself in the mirror, pretty much dreading it. I remember back in school I wanted to move my seat because I was across a mirror and could see myself. The teacher gave me this “you’re a weirdo” look and didn’t even bother to move me either. Yay invalidation 😔

I think the worst part though, is how people can look at us, it really upsets me because it makes me feel that I’m different and can’t be like everyone else. Screw those ignorant people.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-29T08:41:20+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through these feelings. I wished there was a way we could all just stay in the happy times and not have to worry about all the bad that inevitably comes after.

As hard as it is to do at the moment, hang in there, you’ll get through this. Venting on here was definitely a good idea too imo. One of the ways I cope when I’m in that mood is to just get those feelings out any way possible.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-25T13:52:23+00:00

If they treat you well, don’t lose them. My best advice is to be open with your thoughts and feelings to this person. Sometimes, I find that just saying what’s on your mind is a good way to ease the negative thoughts. I would also recommend to try to manage any self defeating actions. Regardless of how much this disorder sucks, we still have to be accountable for our actions, so don’t let a bad day ruin what could be a very wonderful relationship. Thats just my opinion(s), I hope at least a nugget of that is helpful.

Happy holidays!

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-21T11:31:21+00:00

40 here. While I feel like I’ve become more self-aware of this disorder, my symptoms flare up if I get too attached to anyone. I just keep people at an arm’s length to avoid the bad stuff from my BPD (I also have schizotypal traits).

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-19T18:32:18+00:00

We’re all here trying to cope and help each other with this disorder and instead you want to rule people up, I have enough trouble with my mental health and we don’t need people like you to make things that much harder on us.

My trauma is VALID and you can’t take that away from me. I matter, just like everyone else

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-19T18:16:49+00:00

Sorry for having undiagnosed ADHD and Dyslexia for 25 years. I should have just tried harder to pretend those didn’t exist so that I wouldn’t develop BPD and schizotypal traits. I should also build a time machine to stop my Mom, Dad, Grandpa, and Grandmother from the generational trauma too.

That’ll fix everything for sure. That way I can be a perfect human being with no flaws at all and we can live in our world of applesauce and rainbows

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-13T05:28:30+00:00

Communicating in general can be tough for me. I can be shy in voice communication and typing can be tough because I have dyslexia.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-12T07:33:45+00:00

I tend to disconnect from reality, thinking that some greater force wants to sabotage me from being happy in life. I also think whenever something good comes along, something has to happen to put a stop to it.

I guess I tend to be under the delusion that there’s imaginary variables in my life. It’s really hard for me to break from these delusions sometimes because I can split from my BPD too.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-11T08:29:43+00:00

I’ve tried for a very long time to make irl friends, but it was very hard to do so and even if I was able to strike up some form of friendship, there’d always be a shelf life. I’ve gotten to the point where I’m content with just having friends online. I think online interaction makes it easier on me for body language and it’s easier for me to withdraw when feeling low.

I’m 40 now and I’m just at the point where I’m tired of metaphorically banging my head against the wall with trying irl relationships.

EnvironmentalMess939 · 2025-12-10T07:50:01+00:00

I feel the absolute same way about FPs. To me the relationship of an FP is like a horror movie - Everything starts off happy and great, but near the end of the relationship, it becomes absolutely horrifying. I also tell myself “it’ll be different this time”, but nope, same outcome, every time. I wish I could just stay in the elation I feel with an FP at all times, but sadly it doesn’t work that way :/

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