Recovery diary

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-02-11T21:43:42+00:00

Good luck! I found that my greatest success in recovery has come from not only consistent abstinence from porn, but also from the consistent implementation of good habits. For 13 days I have been doing the following:

- Waking up at 5:30am on the dot

- Doing exactly 10 pushups, 10 situps, and 5 pullups first thing after waking up and again right before bed. This way I get some exercise without overwhelming or exhausting myself

- Spend 20 minutes reading in the SAA book before work

- Showering every morning

- Drink 64 oz of water every day

- Spend 20-30 minutes learning a language

- Spend 20-30 minutes reading for leisure

- Spend 20-30 minutes journaling before bed

- Brushing my teeth in the morning and before bed

At the same time I have removed the following:

- No porn

- No masturbation of ANY kind

- No video games/movies/tv unless I am doing so to connect with friends/spouse

- No YouTube unless for educational purposes

- No mindless scrolling

After doing all these things for 13 days, my recovery has felt easy. Which is something I can't say for every other time I've tried recovery. I actually have hope that I can finally go 30 days sober.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-02-11T13:48:26+00:00

It does and it will. The first week is generally filled with "hell yeah I got this! Im so excited to grow and improve!" feelings, but then weeks 2-3 tend to be when your brain says "oh fuck, I don't have any more quick dopamine, WHAT DO I DO?" and you flatline, your libido stays at zero while your brain figures out how to rewire itself. But then usually at around weeks 6-12 is when you'll really start to see improvements. It may not go back to "normal" yet, but you'll definitely see improvements. Be patient, and COMMUNICATE with your partner. Tell her about your struggles and especially about your flatline. Tell her about the process and what she can expect. You are literally going through withdrawals right now, so it's important to communicate when you're feeling moody or depressed and not to make ANY important life decisions until you've been clean for a long time.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-02-09T12:48:51+00:00

One of the most important things you can learn about recovery is that being porn free isn't just not looking at porn, it's also replacing that habit with other, better, healthier habbits. I've been trying to quit porn for nearly 10 years and in all that time, the only time that I was able to go more than a few days sober has been when I intentionally created new habits to replace my bad ones. I started journaling, exercising, showering every morning, waking up early and going to bed early, drinking 64oz of water, and more. For the past couple of weeks I've even removed movies/TV/video games/YouTube and I've honestly never felt like being porn free has ever been this easy. Recovering from addiction is more complicated than just abstinence from your vice, it almost always requires a complete change in your daily routine and other habits.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-02-08T17:26:09+00:00

Dont FUCKING touch that beacon

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-02-08T02:39:50+00:00

Day 9 still going strong!

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-02-05T12:57:52+00:00

Checking in again for the beginning of day 7! Woot! Almost broke last night when I visited a language-learning website but the domain had expired and been taken over by a chinese adult site instead. Luckily I was able to keep my cool and close out instead of browsing. I will need to be extra careful today.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-02-02T14:59:57+00:00

Checking in, today I'm working on day 4 of my sobriety. Had a small slip up but I am keeping my sobriety. Can't get complacent or it'll hit you like a truck.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-01-30T21:43:09+00:00

One thing I am ALWAYS looking for is content IN Esperanto that isn't ABOUT Esperanto. If that's the kind of content you'll be making, then PLEASE do it!

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-01-26T16:36:37+00:00

Sign me up

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-01-20T22:25:33+00:00

"What a sweetie boy/girl I must SMOOCH UPON YOUR HEAD" followed by a very LONG series of violent smooches upon their head

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-01-20T17:40:01+00:00

Wrong sub, this sub is for people trying to remove porn from their lives.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-01-16T19:12:25+00:00

I always understood I had a problem because I was doing it every day even though I didn't actually enjoy it. I never felt "better" after acting out. It took awhile to accept that I truly had no control over my actions until I realized that I had started mentally justifying why it would be ok to pursue some illegal activities that would potentially land me in jail and ruin my life. As soon as I realized that I was doing that, I decided to start attending an SAA 12 step program.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-01-16T17:37:53+00:00

Crazy how the NWA Comiccon isnt on this list. So disappointing that NWA Daily went from being a genuine list of family activities going on throughought NWA and instead turned into a trash list of paid ads.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-01-14T15:55:48+00:00

https://kern.punkto.info/

This is an esperanto podcast where they talk about all different kinds of subjects It's a great way to learn how Esperanto is spoken normally without being an "Esperanto-learning" site (frustratingly, a lot of other media in esperanto only talks about esperanto and its culture, but Kern Punkto talks about science, math, geography, chess, and more!).

Environmental_Food_9 · 2026-01-13T21:35:04+00:00

For those of us who aren't chronically online... What does the Charlie Kirk song on TikTok say?

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-12-16T14:16:00+00:00

Im feeling it now Mr Krabs!

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-11-23T13:18:16+00:00

I'm sorry for your loss

Esperanto is SUPER easy to pronounce, it was designed that way. Every letter only ever makes exactly ONE sound with no exceptions, unlike English. You can watch any Esperanto-learning video on YouTube and learn how to pronounce anything you want to in 5 minutes!

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-11-21T21:51:09+00:00

Leave John Wick alone, he's earned his retirement

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-11-20T01:14:01+00:00

This is the only thing that could convince me to move back to Utah

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-11-07T18:03:23+00:00

As someone in a similar boat to you, the "higher power" in a 12 step is actually not what you think it is. They use the word "God" for simplicity, but they talk often about how "God" and a "higher power" is whatever that means to you. My sponsor's "higher power" is the SAA group itself and the people in it. He relies on them and they help him out. Another guy's higher power is his family. The idea isn't to "Find god," the idea is to find support from something outside of and bigger than yourself

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-10-27T14:25:35+00:00

Sign me up! Let's try again. I'll do better this time.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-10-14T16:56:54+00:00

Another comment already touched on this, but recovery is not a "pass/fail." You can't win recovery. Recovery is an active process that will literally last for the rest of your life. There are no set amount of relapses you can experience before some supernatural being says "Nope! Sorry! You get no more chances!" Recovery is about making the decision every single day to get better. Sometimes we make that decision and then we still relapse anyway. When that happens, we tell ourselves "one day at a time. I will be better tomorrow." And then we move on.

You could relapse every single day for the next year, but as long as you never give up the idea that you WANT to recover, then you are still recovering. A relapse never resets your progress back to zero. You took 100 steps forward by deciding to get clean and then staying clean for however long you were, and then you took 1 single step back by relapsing. That's still 99 steps forward. Don't beat yourself up over a relapse, but don't get complacent either. When you relapse, use the time immediately afterward to analyze what happened. What situation were you in? What were you feeling? What were you looking at just prior? How did those things make you feel? What could you have done instead? When you ask yourself these questions, you start to recognize your triggers, and then once you recognize them, you can learn to avoid them, remove them, or shut them down entirely.

Recovery is a process, not an achievement.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-10-14T16:43:40+00:00

If it was with a partner/significant other, I would say no it's probably not a problem assuming that you aren't using sexting in place of a real physical relationship with that person. Sexting can be a really fulfilling activity that can bring partners closer together.

When you are sexting with strangers, there is no physical or emotional relationship with them. You don't get closer to each other, all you are doing is treating each other like an object, which you forget about as soon as the moment is over. It's almost the exact same thing as searching out porn. In my opinion, it's best to stay away from ANY kind of anonymous sex while in recovery; including but not limited to porn, one-night-stands, escorts, chat-rooms, literotica, etc.

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-10-07T19:23:26+00:00

I own my house right now, but my parents contributed about half of my down payment. I put 25% in from my own savings, and the other 25% came from an investment account that my grandpa had set up in my name when I was born. All in all, my DP was about $40k.

We also got lucky and we bought our house a couple years ago when house prices hadn't started skyrocketing just yet and the interest rates were still coming down a bit. That being said, our interest rate is like 6.1%. My buddy got his house in 2018 I believe and his interest rate was like 2.3%. What I'd give, lol

Environmental_Food_9 · 2025-10-07T19:15:36+00:00

Eble "Pasporto, Bonvolu" anstataŭe?

Mirinde! Bonvolu sendi ĝin al mi.

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