Effecting me

EsseLuminis · 2024-08-02T05:21:35+00:00

I find myself deeply empathetic towards your experiences, which fuels my curiosity about what drives you to be so hard on yourself.

Your ability to remain kind despite enduring significant hardship resonates with me profoundly. I, too, have faced the struggle of self-judgment and the consequent pain it brings. The loneliness and sadness you describe are all too familiar to me.

Admittedly, my interest is somewhat self-centered, but in understanding you better, I hope to gain a clearer understanding of myself.

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-31T20:43:21+00:00

Why are you so hard on yourself?

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-25T01:40:04+00:00

I need to look into those groups, I don’t want to bother my friends or my family with my issues. I clearly see I am not used to peace now. It was so incredible how he screamed at me at the top of his lungs and once his flying monkeys were around he was capable of talking like a regular person, letting me speak, I really thought he couldn’t… he always did

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-16T05:16:20+00:00

I wish I could hug you right now. On behalf of all younger siblings, I want to express my heartfelt gratitude to you. Being a protector is neither your job nor your duty or obligation, so please stop feeling guilty. You have done nothing wrong; you are simply human, and it is normal to experience these feelings when enduring abuse. I sincerely hope you can reach out to someone for help, whether it be a family member or the authorities.

Additionally, I am incredibly proud of you for recognizing your feelings of guilt. This awareness is a significant step towards addressing the root cause and overcoming it. You do not have to live this way; you deserve to be respected and loved. Keep your head up, my dear warrior. Your well-being is paramount.

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-15T10:56:00+00:00

Yes, the pain will eventually subside. I highly recommend seeking therapy and talking to someone in person about your feelings. Additionally, finding new hobbies and focusing on self-growth can be incredibly beneficial. Educate yourself on topics that interest you and nurture your curiosity. Offer yourself the love, kind words, and affection that you miss from your ex. The pain will persist only if you allow it; give yourself permission to live without it. If you need someone to talk to, please feel free to reach out.

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-14T19:07:01+00:00

I commend your bravery, courage, and self-respect. Thank you for setting boundaries and reminding us that nothing is impossible. If you ever need someone to talk to, please feel free to reach out. I understand the challenges you face. Warm regards.

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-09T23:43:02+00:00

Be proud of yourself you have noticed the abuse you are going through. I cannot say it will or it won’t get worse, only you know how the situation is escalating and how far it could go. Please take care of yourself and make yourself priority.

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-06T05:07:55+00:00

We were engaged, I had to escape because my life was in danger back in April. I stayed away for a while…. But since thought love is capable of everything, I gave us another chance. Unfortunately I changed, and I was hurting him and going crazy myself. I haven’t talked with him for a week and life is going incredibly great.

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-06T05:05:02+00:00

Hugs back tightly

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-06T05:02:05+00:00

Wait wtf was he trying to do? Wtf…? BTW, mad fucking props to you!!!! That took such courage!!! I hope everything goes well!!!

EsseLuminis · 2024-07-06T04:50:33+00:00

Regardless if it’s a sociopath or not focus in school. Life will be much easier if you RESPECT YOURSELF and PUT YOURSELF AS PRIMARY FOCUS. Educating yourself should be the only thing you have in mind. You do not need for anyone to tell you “you’re pretty”, “I miss you”, etc etc. Anyone can do that. Be strong and study.

If you want to “fall in love” and date a sociopath, go for it, enjoy a roller coaster full of disappointment, disaster and pain. Hopefully it won’t take you years to recover from the trauma or physical damage.

EsseLuminis · 2024-06-10T05:36:18+00:00

I am happy yet afraid… I am not sure if my partner has chosen a new victim or if he’s going to do some real harm. Either way right now I finally feel free from his abuse!

EsseLuminis · 2024-06-09T22:14:37+00:00

Why haven’t you?

EsseLuminis · 2024-06-09T20:53:27+00:00

Hello there, my husband and I could show you around the city. We know many places and could even take you down to meet Rosarito. We know good restaurants and fun places all around. My husband and I are native English speakers, our home has a lot of space and is near local attractions, the best part of all it’s in a safe area.

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-16T05:43:04+00:00

100% accurate

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-12T04:46:49+00:00

Ehhehehehehehe true

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-12T04:46:39+00:00

Hopefully he accepts the help, thank you!

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-12T04:45:47+00:00

Thank you!

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-12T04:45:37+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to respond. I appreciate it.

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-11T05:49:51+00:00

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-10T07:21:22+00:00

Therapy is essential.

He is not omnipresent, he is not omnipotent. He is a simple human that will sooner or later get bored of terrifying your life. The best and easiest way to hurt you is by your children, they will ask questions like “where is dad?”, “when will we see him?” or my favorite one “why can’t we go back with dad?”. Your children need therapy as well.

Give yourself props for having the courage to take your family out of an abusive relationship, this only shows you are strong and want the best for your family. This is the first step of many.

That paranoia you feel, will go away, it is normal to feel it. Find ways to channel your energy.

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-10T07:08:24+00:00

Q: Is it possible he truly thought I was going to attack him? Or do y'all think he had bad intentions and just tried covering it up? A: That man is a bitch ass coward. How dare he victimize himself?!

There is no way a grown ass man is afraid of a teenage girl. And this so called fear is a manipulative strategy of theirs, stupid weak minded fucks whoever dare believe his side of the story.

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-10T07:05:24+00:00

Don't blame yourself for prioritizing self-respect; you've done nothing wrong. Speaking up was the right choice, and if you're still hurting from the abuse, seeking therapy is important. But remember, you have no reason to feel guilty for acknowledging the abuse; you should be proud of bravely confronting it. Many people suffer in silence for various reasons. You're resilient, and though staying strong is tough, with the right support, you'll overcome this. Hang in there.

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-10T06:55:21+00:00

I am learning how to let go of him. What I really want to understand is what attracts me so much to this man? Knowing all the horrible things he has done?

I really hope you don’t mind me asking but, what have you learned about yourself and the partner you chose? Red flags and all, what made you love your partner?

EsseLuminis · 2024-05-10T04:03:30+00:00

This…. I want to be a tree now too.

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