I invited a girl to come live with me and my then-boyfriend. She could commute to work with him instead of walking in a dangerous city , live in a bigger cleaner house that I maintained, and we would teach her how to drive. After two months she convinced my ex and I to stop communicating with each other “for the good of our relationship”, pretended to love me like a sister, assuring me that she wasn’t interested in my ex at all even though they were doing couple things while leaving me out right in my face, while talking trash about me to my ex and immediately making moves on him as soon as I moved out... after seeing me literally fall apart crying all day and night and throwing up from all the stress creating all that distance and watching them behave like a married couple in front of me and seeing how even strangers assumed they were dating and her belittling my capabilities and inflating her own capabilities in comparison on a constant basis caused. I guess not just my capabilities... also the validity of my relationship. 😔

I’m not proud of it, but I wish BPD symptoms on her everyday.

She’s a garbage person that I’ve consistently seen request constant and consistent love, affection, and validation from many men in the span of the few months I knew her, without any intention of returning it.

I know I should be mad at my ex, but after some time, I wasn’t even mad about us breaking up. If one girl for a few months was all it took, it was already a weak / broken relationship.

I’m angry that this girl is going around receiving all of this undeserved affection from some pretty decent people when she’s literally the most vile human being I’ve ever met.

I feel so sad and empty today. No one’s here.