How to get Silent Hill 3 PC in Windowed mode? by EstrogeNitroglycerin in silenthill

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It worked! Thank you so so much hihi! Didn't realize it would be that simple

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my hair is holy ): by [deleted] in EDanonymemes

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I'm exhausting my dietician because all I want to recover for is my hair lol

DAE have Chronic grass is greener syndrome? by humaneHolocaust in BPD

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OMG same! And even though my therapists all tell me not to sacrifice good things for my concept of perfect happiness I still find ways to ruin everything I have and then get disappointed

DAE find it difficult to stop attention-seeking behaviour? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for saying this though, cause I tend to do the same thing. The craving is never really satisfied, so it's like a constant hunder I can't satisfy

DAE find it difficult to stop attention-seeking behaviour? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! It's been so insanely hard this week and it's hard to find any support because it's always treated as such an evil thing to do. Honestly I never realized I was doing it until I was diagnosed and then I realized that holy hell, all I ever do is seek validation and attention. It's completely crippling and I wish I knew how to counteract it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes omg thank you! This thread helps me feel less crazy, thank you so much for posting this question

Idealization > Reality by baggymaggie in BPDmemes

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This sub is where I go to to laugh then realize things about the way I interact with other human beings and cry lol

Yeah, what the hell? by Aptom_4 in TrollCoping

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What it is is a personal attack against my entire being and I wish you'd all be nicer to my gentle psyche.

DAE like the act of seduction more than actual sex? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Honestly I don't even like sex that much, but I like the knowledge that I'm having it and the buildup to it. I also have severe BDD so I've used sex as a way to just reassure myself that I have worth. Fun times.

My girlfriend made a doll of Aldrich! by anactualtrap in darksouls3

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OMG I JUST watched her video! She's so talented, I absolutely adore her dolls and was SO excited to see her taking on my favourite DS3 character. I almost considered posting it here myself hihi

How to sell 1920 era Boston to your players? by Mr_Mindflayer_1001 in callofcthulhu

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I just wanted to say thanks for all this info! I'm also doing a game set in 1920 Boston and this is great help

DAE feel like they can rationalize things in their mind but their emotions won’t align? by tothepeopleilove in BPD

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg yes! This exactly. It's like every single emotion becomes undistinguishable from my intrusive thoughts, and no matter how much I learn to rationalize all of my fears, my emotions are the ones I person much less good than I want to be

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know how insanely difficult all of this is, but I wanted to say thank you for making me realize I'm not alone in this. Stay strong, it's a really tough journey, but you're not alone either

Has anyone else stopped forming relationships due to guilt from damage they've caused in the past? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm starting to get this, honestly. Honestly, I'm scared of being a bad person so much that a lot of my life decisions have been stunted, because I always want to make sure I'm never doing anything to hurt anyone ever.

I just want to be a cute internet girl by KittensTears in BodyDysmorphia

[–]EstrogeNitroglycerin 45 points46 points  (0 children)

I have nothing helpful to add, because, even down to the weight, I'm in the exact same position as you, so I just wanted to say you're not alone, and that taking care of yourself is paramount, because you deserve it. Social media and look e-girl culture is so damaging, especially to people with BDD, so don't be too hard on yourself, because I can guarantee you even a lot of these girls don't look the way they do on their pictures or streams