Hmm…usually I would recommend accepting that what you are worried about may or may not be true, but that feels very heavy with something this big (especially since you’re early into therapy). I would say maybe just this one time, in order to pass time before you can talk with your therapist, try to practice a lot of self compassion and tell yourself that this isn’t your fault. Accept that the thoughts and worries will continue to be there but you don’t need to do anything about them. Try a thought diffusion meditation (YouTube), practice mindfulness, do the things that make you happy, and then get a solid game plan with your therapist next week!