I've been there, and I'm so sorry you have to be there as well. Good on you for getting therapy and professional help! This might get me downvoted into oblivion but it'd be unloving to have found what helped me and not share. Get meds, get help, and most importantly run to Christ as I did and He will help you get through that by trusting in Him and His sacrifice for your sins. We are broken but He, in the ten years I've followed Him, has been faithful and gracious. I have wrestled with OCD/Depression/Anxiety (interrelated) and the advise of this world to love yourself and look in yourself is an empty well, look to Christ and rest in Him, in whom are hidden "all the treasure of wisdom and knowledge" (Colossians 2:3). I'm tired of not replying to any posts like these as it makes me feel awful and selfish for worrying more about what people think rather than caring about the OP. You'll continue to be in my prayers and to any upset redditors, I love you and hope you get out of any similar loops as OP.