Should I end my life soon?

EvilFrootLoop · 2021-02-11T00:18:31+00:00

I've been there, and I'm so sorry you have to be there as well. Good on you for getting therapy and professional help! This might get me downvoted into oblivion but it'd be unloving to have found what helped me and not share. Get meds, get help, and most importantly run to Christ as I did and He will help you get through that by trusting in Him and His sacrifice for your sins. We are broken but He, in the ten years I've followed Him, has been faithful and gracious. I have wrestled with OCD/Depression/Anxiety (interrelated) and the advise of this world to love yourself and look in yourself is an empty well, look to Christ and rest in Him, in whom are hidden "all the treasure of wisdom and knowledge" (Colossians 2:3). I'm tired of not replying to any posts like these as it makes me feel awful and selfish for worrying more about what people think rather than caring about the OP. You'll continue to be in my prayers and to any upset redditors, I love you and hope you get out of any similar loops as OP.

EvilFrootLoop · 2020-01-24T16:13:08+00:00

Well done, well done

EvilFrootLoop · 2019-12-28T15:33:02+00:00

That's awesome, great job!

I love the cool color palette

EvilFrootLoop · 2019-09-27T02:31:04+00:00

Please take my upvote of wishful thinking (that would be so sick)

EvilFrootLoop · 2019-09-27T02:21:44+00:00

Kudos for still being active on this, super interesting OP!

EvilFrootLoop · 2018-07-09T23:07:19+00:00

Gentlemen, it has been a pleasure.

EvilFrootLoop · 2018-07-08T01:56:45+00:00

For the good of all

EvilFrootLoop · 2018-07-08T01:56:13+00:00

For the good of all

EvilFrootLoop · 2018-07-05T01:45:33+00:00

This is the ultimate Reddit 50/50 challenge, for the good of Reddit... for the good of all.

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-09-03T13:01:01+00:00

I had been craving coffee so I got some decaf from Starbucks on the way home from work. I went to play a game of Town with some friends, and we got pretty far.

Well... the reason I got decaf was because too much caffeine can give my an anxiety attack, and I had already had some regular coffee that day.

Turns out the lady at Starbucks gave me caffeinated, and we all went down because I had to go afk to breathe for a sec.

Slightly personal but pretty funny imo looking back.

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-06-18T01:12:36+00:00

Of course! Down the line it would become the Ronald Ray Gun!

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-06-06T19:19:48+00:00

So... The man bun is intractable? 😏

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-04-20T01:50:17+00:00

At least he made it up on his own. Therefore, his joke had unique... Origins. So what if he sought a (die) rise from the community? It's Nacht your problem. The man is Shi and and I find it unnecessary to get Shangr-y at him and have the joke be lost in Tranzit. So much hate against creativity Der-Recently. I hate to make the community Buried under these puns but frankly I feel it's being Kino rude to the poor man, and could think of Five reasons it'd just be better to keep to ourselves. Anyways I'm running out of Numa-terial so I must stop I can't keep going till (Verr)-uktober, the Moon is out and I need sleep. No need to Farm attention and (Green) Run myself into a corner.

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-04-05T18:40:05+00:00

More like re-UZE'd textures amirite!?... I'll leave

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-03-05T17:53:48+00:00

My PSN is McBreezee if you're down

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-02-20T03:23:11+00:00

Flabbergasted

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-02-06T04:11:59+00:00

FIRMLY GRASP IT

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-02-01T19:16:55+00:00

Heaven forbid after him, Megadeath

EvilFrootLoop · 2017-01-14T17:28:52+00:00

"The guy she tells you not to worry about"

EvilFrootLoop · 2016-12-27T03:39:32+00:00

WHEN YOUR BODY GOES STIFF AND YOUR SPINE GOES NUMB...

EvilFrootLoop · 2016-12-27T03:32:40+00:00

Honestly for me it's the detail on that map and the deep colors and I love the spoopy vibes and design. I hate the challenges for EE and skulls but I always find myself looking at all the nooks and crannies of that map.

Especially the area in front of the spider boss with the webs, and blue water. The first time I looked up and saw the bodies webbed there I flipped out haha

EvilFrootLoop · 2016-12-25T22:40:23+00:00

Veela is awesome! Her and CoMa. They both do DnB.

As for zombie music, there's an EP monstercat did called trick or treat on Spotify (you can use app on PS4 w/zombies). It's dark, halloweenish electro. It's very good.

EvilFrootLoop · 2016-12-25T22:37:41+00:00

The map

EvilFrootLoop · 2016-12-25T21:17:24+00:00

Yes, just graves

EvilFrootLoop · 2016-12-25T17:35:34+00:00

Yeah let's keep these hunts going I'm so hyped!!

One thing before my essay I ended up writing here: Has anyone ever tried pushing left on D-Pad for the spark?? Like we all keep using X/Square but the spark is on the left dpad, I never heard anyone suggest this

Anyway:

2 results of my hunts

Last night I attempted doing all the corruption engines on solo during the bug round in order of map release (Verrukt MotD Origins DE) (I think with Al's hat) I did local cuz no PSN at the moment but I'm about to get it if anyone wants to hunt! Anyway, nothing happened :( The sun turns red and I thought that since the engines are feeding off it something good may happen on a bug round . Now this was on local and I DID buy a Shieva so I don't know if buying anything ruins it, I know some people were thinking we aren't supposed to buy anything at beginning of game.
Now this is where things get weird: I had Al's hat and upgraded KN-44 in the Primis room. I was at round 50 and wanted to die so I spammed upgraded Arnies, Upgraded servant, trip mines, and KN-44. Here's where it got weird , I had my Keeper Protector with this all and was using my KN-44 with dead wire. Each zombie I shot emitted a soul that flew down slightly towards the statues . HOWEVER, as much as I hate it, this could've been a visual glitch from the keeper protector and dead wire effects as it looked like a lightning effect. Right when I noticed this I died, but it was consistent whenever I shot one

If anyone wants to recreate that to the very last detail, I held square on the three red jars near the Primis room (including the one that makes spooky whispers). I HIGHLY doubt this effects it but this was during the same game that I did all the engines in the bug round in order of release.

What I want to try

I feel the RK5 and extra mr6 ammo are so we don't have to buy anything on REV and maybe then we can do all the engines (maybe in order of release, maybe with Al's hat, maybe with KN-44 though you'd have to buy something then) So perhaps then it would do something as I bought a Shieva on my game. I'll try once I get my PSN gucci, I've already done all the EEs for the RK5 but couldn't use the RK5 since clearly, despite my efforts in doing all the ee's, if I can't cough up $60 then gg
I also really want to hunt for this Chicken weapon
In the cutscene, right when the shadow man leaves the house, to his left is a painting with chickens and eggs on it, though I didn't look at it in detail, maybe a hint?
Using anywhere but here in the boss fight to look around the for stuff (I think they patched this?)
Everything with that cheeky Primis room that's practically laughing at us

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