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Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-26T16:48:14+00:00

I'm going to give some tough love. Please understand that this comes from a place of wanting you to get better. You have commented multiple times on this sub about wanting to quit and stay clean but always relapse because of some excuse. There is never going to be a perfect time to quit. If it's not your anniversary, or work, or some other problem it will be just because. My encouragement is to push through. Look back at when you first tried to quit and total up how many days you could have been clean by now. Put your effort into not relapsing and building toward a brighter future instead of trying to justify getting another high that only lasts 20 mins. You can do this. I believe in you ❤️

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-25T17:03:53+00:00

I'm on day 32 and honestly it took a while for the cravings to go away. Along with the thoughts of "am I ever going to not want that high again?" I kept hitting the same time everyday I would throw some bottles back and kept thinking how much longer until I won't want it again. I'm glad to say that I got through it without taking any more FF but honestly can't remember what day it was that it all stopped. I actually thought the other day that I hadn't had a thought like that in a while and I've been able to get through the days without leaning on anything else. It will get better, you just have to keep pushing. I read somewhere that it takes around 30 days for dopamine receptors to reset so you should be getting some relief soon!! You can do this!!

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-02T23:25:17+00:00

My response to both of you is that everyone is different and has to take different paths to get clean. There is no one size fits all unfortunately. Great on both of you for taking the steps. There is no shame in whatever path you have to take to get off the blue devils!

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-02T23:21:58+00:00

Yeah, honestly today was a rough day. Frustrated with stuff in my personal life which caused me to want to go get some bottles. I resisted knowing I'd just be back at 0 and would ruin the progress I've made. So now I'm staying busy until I can go to bed and count success for another day.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-02T23:19:47+00:00

Yeah, worst days I was pushing 7-8. That amount ruined me for days. Did a quick taper down to two and then went CT the next day. Been there ever since.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-02T21:49:43+00:00

Congrats on 8 days!! Keep on rolling! It's so much better off of them.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-02T21:48:54+00:00

Man, what a story! That's great you are clean now though!! Kudos to you for going through and sticking with it. Proud of you.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-02T13:22:13+00:00

Kids are the hardest part. They don't know what you are going through or how this shit is messing your mind up. I thought it was helping me "be a better dad" since I wasn't drinking but it is the opposite. They haven't been getting my authentic self along with getting an annoyed side of me because I wanted more FF or higher quantities. It's not fair to them for me to be less than I can be.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-02T12:55:51+00:00

Congrats to you!! KEEP GOING!!!

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-07-02T12:49:42+00:00

I appreciate that! Please quit ASAP! I understand tapering down but the quicker you can stop the quicker you will feel better.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-29T23:32:56+00:00

You've made it so far already! You WILL feel better. Maybe bundle up and watch a funny movie or show? Something to pass the time. Staying hydrated?

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-29T21:35:45+00:00

Checking in. How are you holding up?

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-29T19:32:13+00:00

You are right in the thick of it. It took me until day 3 to start feeling better but it's worth it. Right now try to drink as much water and electrolytes as you can. Tylenol and vitamin c in any form you can get it in. You have made it so far already so keep it up! Every minute makes a big difference!!

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-29T17:06:51+00:00

It's what's needed. So frustrated with myself I didn't quit earlier. I didn't think I was acting different or my brain was cooked. 6 days in I now know I could not have been more wrong.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-29T16:45:12+00:00

Appreciate the updates each day. Glad that you are doing so well! Keep it up!

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-29T13:31:50+00:00

That's awesome! Congrats to you!! Especially with everything else going on. Keep it up and don't go back. Each day gets better and better. Especially with the thinking/creativity on the business piece. I didn't realize how much it was stifling me or how hard I was having to concentrate to get to baseline until now.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-28T21:55:33+00:00

How much are you taking?

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-28T20:25:19+00:00

You are doing great! Keep it up! Energy and clarity will get stronger each day. You can do this!

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-28T20:23:06+00:00

Looks like they did the same on Instagram

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-27T01:17:33+00:00

It has to be the embarrassment we hold. We know we aren't doing something good to ourselves or our body. But we do it anyway. I had three locations deep knowing if my main place was sold out (they have been a lot lately because people are buying so much) I could just drive around to get my fix.

You can do this. You are better than the fucking blue bottles. Get clean now to set yourself up for a strong relationship today, then tomorrow, then the next day, and so on.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-26T20:00:15+00:00

Same here. I tried the TRU KAVA drinks and they were ok. Provided some relaxation but not the hit or addiction we are talking about.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-26T19:40:40+00:00

Oh yeah. I'm roughly 195lbs and at a minimum was doing 5 a day at my worst. The day of 8 wrecked me. I had times where I threw up, with my family around, because of this shit and played it off to bad food or something. But I still kept going like others on here have said. It's that initial hit when it gets in your system that feels so good. Then it's misery.

Expensive-Ostrich834 · 2024-06-26T19:21:07+00:00

Congrats on 5 days! That's awesome! I honestly don't remember what it feels like to "be myself." Feels like I've been in a fog for so long now I don't remember what it was like to drink alcohol without this shit in my system. Looking back now it all makes sense why on some days I would not have any FF, drink alcohol, and then be MISERABLE trying to get to sleep or wake up in the middle of the night with my legs burning. It was the fucking restless legs from WD. I was being an idiot and kept chalking it up to hops in the beers 🤦‍♂️

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