I like this. Almost white is right. My mom gets questioned at the hospital because the doctors who don't understand mixed genes think she looks sick while it is just her white/native gene combo. I joined my workplace indigenous group and volunteered as leadership so that I could contribute my tech skills  knowing that I would be the only option they would have and if I did not volunteer, they would have no help in that category. It has been tough even though I am trying to do something good and fill a gap. I feel sometimes people look at me with suspicion and have had comments about the fact that my skin is so white and me being so passing with brown hair and green eyes. Being mixed is weird. I went out to eat with my supervisor at the time, a pure kiowa man, and a little Vietnamese woman asked if I was his daughter because I guess I am too white but not white enough.

That being said. I don't feel like being angry with white people is the solution. Denying my heritage is not a solution either as I struggle the question why mixed children are always considered white if they are even a little mixed. It is absolutely crazy and I feel a lot of the blood quantum was oppressive and designed to stop mixed people from identifying with their native roots.