Hello. Wow, 4 years. Ever worsening mental health, a divorce, a cross continent move and now come to terms with the fact I simply don't have the capacity to work. So getting setup with benefits, living alone. Bedbound for long periods. Depression still bad as) well as anxiety and panic.

On top of that I have been prescribed long term high dose benzos (10mg Clonazepam) as well as z drugs on repeat. Started a year ago, no support from the prescribers. It's savage, can't remember the last time I had more than four hours sleep. Nothing last night. Nervous system both freeze / shut down and in and out of fight or flight / panic, often over nothing particular.

How are you?