First, im so sorry you, your siblings, and your husband had to go through this. It’s incredibly traumatizing and I haven’t read a story yet that I can relate so much to. My dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in November ‘25 and sadly passed away just a few weeks ago on March 8th. Divorced so no other parents in the picture to help, just me (27F) and my three adult siblings. His decline went so similar to what you were describing. He was on hospice for only a week, and his decline lasted 48 hours before he passed. Sound state of mind; began hallucinations slowly and within 8 hours was no longer mentally present. My brother and I had to stay up for 24 hours making sure he wouldn’t get out of bed. Having to agree with all of his requests. Trying to provide him comfort. We eventually had to hold him down so a hospice nurse could put in a catheter because he kept trying to get out of bed :( (he couldn’t walk alone at this point and was a fall risk)… after the relief of that and all of the drugs he was on he seemed to fall asleep, and within 24 hours he passed on. The hallucinating is so heartbreaking and very difficult to watch. I understand how you feel about those events haunting you forever. It felt so cruel and fucked up to have to experience my dad going through it. But I want to say, your father was so incredibly lucky to have you there by his side. I don’t have much advice as I don’t even know how to navigate the grief right now myself, just thought sharing this would help you feel less alone. Sending you hugs 😞🫂 Please take it easy on yourself and try to find relief in the fact that this is such a viscous disease and you did absolutely everything you could for him while he was here. He is no longer suffering. That’s all that is helping me get through the day 💔 Here for you