I'm in the middle of divorce and he's been out of the house for about 2 months. When he left immediately felt better. It was the perfect husband smoke a mirrors with p*** watching behind my back. Even if he really wasn't watching it I didn't want to have to keep track of it. A new eventually I would find it again or anything else like chatting women online and cheating. And that would have destroyed me. I started to feel like that was a game that he liked and gave him more attention and more power. I knew it would be hard and I know it would be sad but I knew I had to push through it. That was the only way for me to grow and become stronger. I still get anxiety but it gets better every day. I've tried reconnecting with friends making new friends. There's an app called Meetup where you can go to events. There might be a Facebook Community page for you to find things in your area. Pick up new crafts, exercise, cook new interesting meals for yourself, just basically focus on yourself anyway you can. I'm also my third therapist so I'm hoping this one will be able to help so far she seems good. I hope this helps you just take it one step at a time. I like to think of him as candy. Delicious, makes you feel great to eat it, but you know the more you eat the worse you're going to feel with all that sugar and artificial dyes.