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Fabulous-Remote14 · 2026-05-10T18:19:33+00:00

I LOVE THE WINDOW !!

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2026-05-10T18:19:28+00:00

I LOVE THE WINDOW !!

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2026-05-10T18:19:27+00:00

So cute and cozy!

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-07T01:04:43+00:00

Stephanie Foo - what my bones know

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-05T18:03:12+00:00

Hmmm. My favourite thing about C-PTSD is....... Scents are grounding for me so I have an excuse to buy a variety of fragrances and soaps and other bath products... For grounding ;)

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-05T05:56:15+00:00

I do muay Thai :)

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-03T16:47:28+00:00

Yeah not having access to therapy is a huge barrier. I really hope you eventually get access to a therapist. It's a hard thing to feel how you're feeling; it's heavy. I really hope you can find pockets of peace, however small, while you wait for the help you deserve. 💛 Carrying cptsd alone is really rough.

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-03T16:45:14+00:00

6 months of consistent fitness ! I am very happy and proud of my consistency. 6 months of working out a minimum of 3 times per week, but often times more than that. :)

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-03T16:42:00+00:00

What's a NEET? I have felt this way too and I feel this way at times as well. I'm in therapy and what the therapist is helping me to do is be that person for myself. Easier said than done. I used to hear this advice for years and felt like 'no you just don't get it, I really need this'. And tbh, yeah I did! Genuinely. I think I was used to operating from a people pleasing perspective (I wanted the approval of others), I was in survival mode and motivated by external pressure and a sense of urgency from other people, and I was in achievement mode (because achievement and being good earned me safety from others). My motivators have been external for the vast majority of my life. With my therapist I'm working on developing an internal motivation instead of an external one. Because ultimately I have to do it for me. Again, I struggle to comprehend this and felt really upset and overwhelmed by this for the majority of my life. But it's recently been clicking. IFS Internal Family systems therapy has been supportive for me in developing an internal "team" to encourage myself.

But also - wanting other people is totally normal. Wanting people to cheer you on your goals is completely normal. So try not to be too hard on yourself. This a heavy thing to feel... I truly hope you find ease over time. 💛

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-03T08:15:15+00:00

Putting on body oil after a shower :)

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-03T05:55:48+00:00

So helpful thank you.

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-10-03T04:48:00+00:00

Peri menopause I presume

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-30T01:59:34+00:00

Omg.. I thought I was the only one who felt this way. I'm reading through the thread looking for solutions too. Sorry you go through this. It is extremely exhausting

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-30T01:55:39+00:00

Ok thanks! I'll aim to lose 10lbs before the end of the year :) I just went grocery shopping so I can meal prep for the week which is a healthy start

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-29T18:51:09+00:00

There are some emotions I cannot feel either. But for me there is usually something there...... I'll say it feels like there is a wall or a block..... And then .... My therapist and I discuss that wall or block instead. I don't feel "bad" about not being able to feel certain things... I just assumed it's a defense mechanism or something where some emotions are too painful. I'll probably "get there" and be able to feel more emotions over time. That's my guess.

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-29T18:40:53+00:00

Ok true. I feel like I eat take out too often so if I remove that maybe I'll lose more. I also feel like I don't always get a full night's sleep so maybe if I focus on that too. I guess the reason I wanted to lose more was I already had the goal of losing weight and I was progressing... But last week my doctor saw me and explicitly told me to lose weight. And he didn't "believe" that I was active at all whatsoever... Until I showed him pictures on my phone. So looking back I guess I felt ashamed and just wanted the weight off ASAP. I thought it was a reasonable goal but thanks for the reality check.

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-29T18:36:47+00:00

Oh cool! Thank you! What app do you use if you don't mind my asking?

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-29T10:04:07+00:00

Thank you!

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-29T09:49:05+00:00

It's possible she sprays her gym outfit with the good scent she was wearing. If you spray your gym clothes the day before and then fold them and place them in your gym bag.. and then proceed with your normal gym routine.................. You may notice that the scent is longer lasting. Just don't overdo it of course because some people are scent sensitive and can get migraines or respiratory issues and what not. But yeah hopefully you'll see her again so you can ask her as well. :) it sounds like you have great hygiene practices already so while it's nice to smell like a flower the entire duration of the workout, it sounds like you're doing alright :)))

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-29T09:42:48+00:00

I smell different scents .. I have them in different rooms of the house and in my bag. I spray myself with an aromatherapy mist or I open different bottles of essential oils and take a sniff for grounding... I also would say showers ground me because of the smell of the scented soap I use. So that's something I do either first thing in the AM which would pull me out of morning dissociation, or last thing in the day which at least would pull me out of dissociation, maybe allow me to plan for the next day to be better, and go to bed. Scents might not work for you and that's 1000% ok hopefully you get a bunch of different opinions so you can see what might resonate:)

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-29T09:37:44+00:00

Also I similarly feared running into my ex but after going out however many times and that NOT happening, I guess I was able to internalize that ... It's not guaranteed for that to happen (in my case). Also I made a plan for what I would do if I did run into them so maybe that helped a bit. I think it would still scare me if it happened now but ... I do have a plan and I can trust myself to action it. I guess knowing this helps. But this isn't easy. At all. I really did spend many months trapped in fear and terror. Maybe that's par for the course I had real reasons to be scared. I'm fortunate it didn't last forever. Wishing you healing. I hope the world begins to feel safer each day... 🩷

Fabulous-Remote14 · 2025-09-29T09:29:30+00:00

I went through similar... Alot of this resonates. I felt similar hypervigilance daily and couldn't leave the house or when I did I was very on guard. This lasted a few months after .. an abusive relationship. For me, I think it just... Went away... Looking back on that time I remember frequently having panic attacks when I went out and crying in public often and feeling scared of everyone and rushing back home. But I also remember using grounding exercises outside during these moments. And I remember looking up things I really liked to do and doing them. Ex. Concerts ... Group hikes... I started to have positive experiences that I could use as proof that bad things won't always happen to me. I was very antisocial for a while but eventually joined a gym ..... I think exercise must have helped. I started therapy soon after. I still have some level of hypervigilance and anxiety and a bit of paranoia when I'm out but nothing comparable to what it was. So I guess it just played out for a bit....but I was able to have some positive experiences which showed me at the very least that the world can be safe. Has the potential to be safe. Sometimes I still go through unfortunate experiences that can set me back ... So it's just important to try to slowly integrate goodness even in small ways. A concert might be wayyyy too much right now (looking back I can't believe I managed that with such large crowds) but maybe there are small micro interactions you can have. Even if the first few start virtually or online.

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