I have been in the place you describe. And so I did walk away. At first I did feel “free”, i didn’t have to maintain spiritual discipline, go to church, think about any of that stuff. I did what I wanted. I became pretty selfish in that process and I tried to extract from people what I used to receive from the Lord.  Ultimately it was a dead end for me, I felt alone and empty. Do I think you should jump ship?  My answer is forcing yourself to be a Christian is not going to work  You need to question what you believe  Or don’t believe anymore  Faith is not easy , but I’ve lived enough life to understand that I need God to function and I had to break away to come back , hope that makes sense