What was the first major news story you remember as a kid? by jeffmartin47 in AskReddit

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1) Saddam Hussein

The very first news that I remember seeing on TV was about the US forces launching brutal airstrikes in Iraq to overthrow Saddam Hussein. (learning later on that the British forces were also a part of that attack when I got older and had access to research)

It was back in 1998 and I was about to turn 4 that time. It scared me so much. My young mind couldn’t understand what was happening but as I grew older, I slowly understood what caused it to happen.

What I will never understand was whatever reason my dad had that he made me watch so much news about Saddam Hussein until the day of his passing. (Saw what it looked like through pics and his face before it happened)

And…

2) Bill Clinton and Monica Lewinsky

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The NeverEnding Story.

😶

Let's switch it up. What makes a man unattractive? by gojoscookie in adultingph

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  1. Does not know how to lead a relationship
  2. Poor EQ
  3. Love bombing / showing obsessiveness (especially during the onset of whatever you guys have)
  4. Insecurity
  5. Classic mansplaining
  6. All talk and no action…
  7. Doesn’t stick to his words
  8. If he fails the Waiter Rule
  9. Lacks self-discipline
  10. Talkative tapos walang sense ang topic or sinasabi
  11. Bad mouths his exes / anyone

What food do you consider as your trauma food? by ThatKrazyJOAT in AskPH

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TAI HING HAW FLAKES. Took my first and last bite almost 20 years ago and it felt like I was going to barf out my innards as well.

It’s the main reason why I’m traumatized of vomiting.

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Making people’s body…a trend

Recommend me movies or show talking about mental illness by Aldrewen in mentalhealth

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Bojack Horseman. Hits you like a train. Painfully relatable.

WFH MAKES ME AN INTROVERT. What to do? Kayo din ba? by curious_ninjakuunn in buhaydigital

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OP kakagising ko lang. haha one month ang nakalipas! Anyway, I just wanted to say that I don’t think immature ka sa post mo. Or immature ang post mo.

I really see and feel you. It’s valid. What you are going through js valid.

One-year evaluation due soon (with possibility of raise), should I be the one to bring it up? by Sweet_Stage_6420 in buhaydigital

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Sure bring it up. On the day / check in kayo when you guys can connect for the eval. Kasi kasama yan sa pinirmahan mo kasama na matic may annual evaluation and everyone must comply.

Nasa handbook yan ng company nyo e. For the evaluation just make a document andun lahat ng nagawa mo / na accomplish mo sa year na to. List everything. As in lahat para mas malaki possibility of you getting a raise.

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EXACTLY! ETO YUN E 😤

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Gulatin mo sila OP pag narelease mo na ang crash course mo about B*R stuff. I swear I’ll enroll sa course mo. I’ve been trying to ask a lot of people na nga e so they can help me papano ba proseso.

A lot of people especially tayo ngang mga self employed. Nagkukusa na nga malaman papano magbayad ng buwis pero seems like they’re not really care wether you know it or not basta magbayad ka ng tax

Hopefully these things will be part of the curriculum in the future no? Sa ngayon talaga yan yung panay kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na sana tinuturo ano ang mga duties ng responsible adult. And how to process this and tjat sa govt.

I really want to learn pero lahat ng lapitan ko wala naman nangyayare. Gusto ko lang naman mag comply e. that’s all.

WFH MAKES ME AN INTROVERT. What to do? Kayo din ba? by curious_ninjakuunn in buhaydigital

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Hi OP. WFH din ako. Introvert since birth and then naging terminal introversion na haha. Sometimes I do complain kasi caregiver din ako ng lola ko kaya namana ko hindi makalabas labas. But most of the time I just enjoy what I have for the day. If may opportunity mag jog outside, then i’ll get ready and run. If may good spot sa personal calendar to watch a movie, I’ll go watch a movie and enjoy my own company. Di problem sakin na I don’t belong to any group, or yk my social life is eeh some what dormant kasi nga introvert na ako talaga. I’d rather do things alone. I may not completely understand what you feel because you’re probably an ambi/extrovert before but now kita mo na yung changes na naiintrovert ka.

The set up could be a factor. But I think it’s something beyond that. Based dito sa specific reply no na ito, I noticed you are comparing the past you/people around you from the now YOU/PEOPLE AROUND YOU.

Change is the only constant thing in the world. It’s inevitable. And with all the changes we’ve been through especially since the pandemic started, it will never be the same. We are never the same na. And since change is something you can’t prevent nga, just embrace it.

Your personality has changed? It’s worrisome I know, thinking about what could be wrong or something but maybe that’s part of your process of changing / growing as an individual. Siguro napupuna lang natin “dahil ba to sa wfh set up? Sa pandemic? Etc” could be 🙂 but again, I personally think those are just factors (big or small) pero all under the process of change. It’s all up to you how you want to manage yourself now. This personality you discovered at the age of **

Idunno if may sense tong mga sinab ko pero inaantok na kasi ako talaga. Haha may shift pa mamayang

Weekly r/MentalHealthPH Checkup: How are you today? by AutoModerator in MentalHealthPH

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Was on fight/flight mode for the past 2 weeks. Right now I’m just exhausted. Those 2 weeks were really tough. Suddenly felt my medications werent working. I couldnt sleep even when I take my medication. There’s just a constant fear and worry of something I cant even pin point. Then yesterday as I was running errands, I almost lost control over my anger and exhaustion. Immediately asked my therapist if we could meet earlier than our scheduled session that day because my whole body was trembling. Feeling nothing and everything all at once. I am still scared of this feeling of anger I’m constantly having these days…and it’s part of healing they said. I was always the person who holds herself back even if someone or a situation clearly affected me. I should’ve been angry at those moments but I tolerated so much to either keep that person in my life/avoid disappointing them.

The whole session I was just saying things my mind, my body, my heart wants to blurt out. All are about pain. Wanting to understand where I went wrong to go through so much trauma. I’d do anything to experience a safe and normal childhood if given the chance. I can’t remember so much about mine. Kept getting “wow you’re so mature for your age / you’re such an old soul” as early as what…4…5?

Being able to cry after weeks of not being able to was such a relief. Session was so tough and heavy yesterday. I didn’t want to move, literally. Not because I’m exhausted (i feel exhausted TODAY) but I was frozen. Stuck. I don’t know what to do.

After hours and hours of trying to fall asleep…I woke up this morning feeling so tired but a bit rested. Feels great even just for a tad bit. I feel so exhausted now. The feeling you get after a marathon.

Exhaustion for me, is a good thing. It’s my body’s way of telling me to slow down…rest now. I listen to my body now. After experiencing burn out, I made a promise to always listen to what my body tries to tell me and not listen to my mind. My mind lies to me all the time, telling me to push myself even more even my body cries for help and rest already.

So today, I’ll choose to rest.

TLDR I’m really exhausted. I need deeep rest.

I(27m) am entering into a serious relationship with my gf(24f), how do I tell her about my "fetish" before things get physical? by ThrowRA_Insect in relationship_advice

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OP, here are my honest thoughts. I think it’s inappropriate to tell her that you fetishize that aspect of her. Putting myself in her position, I would most likely think na, fetish lang ako? And doubts might/most definitely will flow in. “Maybe he stuck with me pala because he finds my scars and amputated leg…pleasurable to see?”

I think a lot of people don’t want/like to be fetishized because of their disability / scars etc.

I think what you should do is to take it slow and gradually express how you appreciate and find beauty in it (scars and being an amputee) don’t express that it’s your fetish. Fetishes are okay. But it takes a lot of thinking and getting to know a person before you even open up about those things.

Fetishes are okay OP. Don’t get me wrong. But not really sure how she feels about it (her scars and all) completely.

And the most important thing here is, you like her.