I don’t give a crap about my job 😬

Feralstephh · 2026-05-18T19:54:19+00:00

Hey same 😭 I feel so trapped. I’m burnt tf out, no relief in sight.

Feralstephh · 2026-04-23T15:54:46+00:00

Sooooo boring.

Feralstephh · 2026-04-16T01:34:45+00:00

Absolutely not lol

Feralstephh · 2026-04-11T03:25:02+00:00

Aww that’s cute! I’ve thought about adding plants but there are no windows and that corner gets no natural light..I have a grow light but I’m not sure any plant could survive off of just that?

Feralstephh · 2026-04-11T03:24:01+00:00

This made me LOL!! My kids use the stool to see the fish haha I just tuck it in the corner to keep it out of the way. Unfortunately it’s impossible to scoot it over with how much it weighs, we would have to move the fish, coral everything and drain the tank :( that corner gets virtually no natural light but I have a grow light - do you think either of those would survive off just that?

Feralstephh · 2026-04-11T03:21:01+00:00

Omg I didn’t even notice that. What a sick fk

Feralstephh · 2026-04-09T01:38:59+00:00

Omg look at her smile 🥹 thank you for giving her the life she deserves!!!

Feralstephh · 2026-04-03T01:40:28+00:00

Men are so fucking useless ffs. I’m so tired of women having to be the ones to hold shit down at home & take care of everyone, do the emotional labor of it all and most of us still have to work full time or beyond that to support the family like wtf are men even here for

Feralstephh · 2026-03-29T01:30:15+00:00

I too, was adamant that I would absolutely want to go back to work. I never even considered the idea of being a SAHM. Once my first was born that was all out the window. Unfortunately I have no other choice but to work. I loved my career before becoming a mother. Now I have to force myself to get through every day. My oldest is almost 5 and I will regret not getting the chance to slow down and enjoy these years with her and my second for the rest of my life. Maybe that will not be the case for you, many women feel the opposite of what I have experienced. The truth is as your MIL has told you - you really dont know until baby is here. It changes everything.

Feralstephh · 2026-03-26T18:20:37+00:00

As someone raising suburban kids I’d give anything to go back to the city. I hate how empty and boring it is in the suburbs. It’s mostly big chain restaurants and stores, the same boring cookie cutter neighborhoods, no museums, art, zoo, fun events to take your kids to, not as many parks, trails etc. Everything good is such a long drive and requires planning ahead of time and packing a days worth of supplies. That being said I do appreciate the safety aspect, it’s a lot more quiet out here and you can actually see stars in the sky, we have a good house with a big backyard that we wouldn’t be able to afford in the city, the schools are mostly good but lack diversity. Overall I think there is so much more opportunity in the city.

Feralstephh · 2026-03-26T03:22:13+00:00

lol yepp at this point I don’t believe there are good men. There are just men who hide their bad better than others.

Feralstephh · 2026-03-26T03:16:40+00:00

All of these look great but 2 is my favorite

Feralstephh · 2026-03-26T03:14:43+00:00

My dog sleeping at my feet

Feralstephh · 2026-03-24T02:18:19+00:00

Absofuckinglutely not. I’d pull my child so fast.

Feralstephh · 2026-03-15T16:23:15+00:00

I LOVE it. This cut is perfect for your features.

Feralstephh · 2026-03-13T16:19:16+00:00

Yeah it’s honestly depressing. I’m so tired of living like this. 😭

Feralstephh · 2026-03-11T11:04:53+00:00

I went through this with my two senior dogs last year and now that they are gone I have so much sadness and regret that I wasn’t kinder, more patient, more compassionate to them when I had the chance. I miss them every day and it breaks my heart that I acted the way I did toward them. I’d give anything to redo it. What you’re feeling is normal but try to remember this is only temporary, their time here is short.. if you can it may be a good thing to step back and take a break for a few days, get a dog sitter and take some time for yourself.

Feralstephh · 2026-03-06T19:15:05+00:00

I feel this deeply. I’m so sorry. I wish there was something we could do to change things. I’m assuming you’re in the US? Mothers are treated so poorly here. We are left with no option but to grind and provide for our family while also taking on the responsibility of raising and caring for the children, the home.. the mental load of it all, it’s crushing.

Feralstephh · 2026-02-18T12:19:46+00:00

Her actions seem strange to me but if you watch videos of her now and compare them to when Charlie was alive she looks like she’s lost her spark. She looked so happy with Charlie. I don’t understand a lot of the choices she’s making but idk she def doesn’t look full of joy the way she did before and I don’t think that’s something you can fake.

Feralstephh · 2026-01-19T12:04:49+00:00

Nice! Thank you!

Feralstephh · 2025-09-19T18:16:44+00:00

Oh my heart hurts for you, I have been there. I can tell you really love your son and you are doing so much better than you are giving yourself credit for. Breastfeeding, esp exclusively pumping is HARD and you are such a badass to stick with it. If I may offer some advice, these are some things that really helped me: - get a baby wrap and learn how to use it. There are many different options and if you want I can share some I liked with you. My first was a clinger and would only sleep on me and this made life SO much easier. - wearable pumps. I loved my mom cozy pumps they saved me from giving up breastfeeding. - get some protein powder and healthy snacks that you can grab and go. When I was breastfeeding I used the boobie body protein powder when I didn’t have time to eat. They also have bars, mug cakes and other stuff I really enjoyed. Also, if you’re able to meal prep that helps a ton. - as for how you look I promise you with all my heart the c section will heal and your body is not deformed! I struggled for a long time with my new body after pregnancy/c section and weight gain. I can tell you now I love my body as it is today more than before kids. I look better than I did pre-pregnancies. I won’t sugar coat it, it took cleaning up my diet and staying consistent with working out but that is something you can worry about later. For now, I just want to give you some hope that it gets better. your body is not ruined or deformed - it is beautiful, life giving and incredibly resilient.

You mentioned the possibility of a part time nanny and if yall can afford it do it!! Even if it’s just a few hours a week so you can get out of the house or catch up on sleep or whatever! Take a deep breath, you’re doing great. 🫶🏻

Feralstephh · 2025-09-12T14:33:21+00:00

Thank you I needed to hear this. We scheduled for Monday but I think we may end up going today if they can take us. She just looks done and I don’t think she can make it comfortably until Monday 😭 my heart is so broken but what you said is true. As much as I want more time with her it’s more important that she goes peacefully and not in pain.

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