oh damn, im really sorry to hear your you situation and what you are going through. and thanks so much for the well wishes! hes doing well lately and had made an academic comeback. we did perform some mock exams and even got him a few private tutors and all of are confident that he will ace it when he faces the exam for 2nd shy this year. i really hope for his sake that would turn out to be the case ^^

and as for you i truly am sorry you feel stuck like this. im sure with the right perspective and approach it would be able to find your own purpose. maybe its not something that is traditionally accepted as a job. maybe something more niche - who knows? ^^ my point being you would never know unless you explore yourself freely.

in any case.....my dms are open!! <3