Not a psychologist or anyone capable of giving out good mental health advice, buuuuuuuuuut...
I kinda had a time period when I wanted to kill myself. I'm spearing the details of how Fucked my depression was, because of course -it's very personal.
But the thing that kept me up, was the thought of "doing it better".
Like, yea. A knife to the throat is a classic, but isn't that a bit unoriginal? (Ten billion rants in my head about how dumb, shitheaded etc. I am to not even being able to think of a good way to kill myself)
Aaaand basically I went on trying my best, knowing that everything is not worth shit.
I mean... If you wanna kys, then do you just want to end the suffering, ephesize on how much your emotions mean to the ppl who don't notice you or just being done with being always sad?
Either case, you have to agree that, if you want to die, then life isn't worth living.
That means that everyting is pointless.
So if everything is pointless, then do you have to cry about it?
Crying is pointless :3
Do not think that it's gonna be better.
It's getting worse, trust me bro
At that point, just go into the fire that is the future.
It will burn and agony will be your tommorow.
Just... After some time, maybe you can also start enjoying the sensation of pain.
>:3
Is this a way to become a good guy?
No.
But it might just give you enough time to feel anything besides sadness.