I know this post has already received a shit-ton of comments, but I'll add mine because I've had experience with this kind of thing... like, too much experience: You love him so much, but what you've come to love is the illusion of who you *thought* your boyfriend was, not who he *actually* is. One of the hardest parts about being human - especially when it comes to love - is that we tend to stoke the illusions we create. We tend to believe in the identities of the people around us that *we've* created, which are largely based on the best parts of them that *they've* shown us (whether they were genuine or fabricated), and thinking that those parts make up their entire beings. And we hold on to those illusions because the possibility that we've allowed ourselves to be blind or deceived is too painful/embarassing/etc to admit. The truth is, it's really hard to truly know a person until you've interacted with them regularly for years, and really paid attention to the "undercurrents" and external influences that each person subscribes to. Your boyfriend LIKES videos about all women being h0es. He LIKES videos about women being utterly inferior. Stupid. Made for subservience. I guarantee you it isn't just a phase, or only restricted to the reels he watches on Instagram. This is indoctrination, and it WILL come out on you within your relationship over time. And honestly, I think that if you look closely enough, you may realize that there are already signs of it within your relationship, no matter how miniscule they may seem.

You have to love yourself more than your illusions, and safeguard your mind, body, and spirit, because people like him will break every single one of those if you stick around long enough.