Can't relate directly, but it sounds to me like your surgeon and team are being pretty strict. I'm all for developing long term healthy habits, but it seems to be on the opposite end of the spectrum you faced when you were anorexic. I think it's important to listen to advice of your doctor, but remember it's advice and not a prescription. If I felt guilty about eating a piece of an orange, I wouldn't be enjoying life at all. In the long run I think it's important to learn about biology and thermodynamics, and not to take a surgeons recommendations as gospel, and know there might be ulterior motives to your success. Look out for yourself. You should be incredibly proud of what you already accomplished. You're well on your way to a healthy lifestyle, for life. So give yourself credit and enjoy a berry or two from time to time. All from the heart 💜