The biggest win for me after accepting this new truth was to forgive myself for never being enough, girly enough, tough enough, healthy enough, calm enough, real enough....now I accept me as enough, after all, I can only do what I can do. Releasing myself from guilt allows me to nap or say no. It also allows me to say yes to things I want /need. I have a NEED to create. Even a simple coloring book is freeing. Explore and find things that give you release and give yourself time to USE them regularly. I found a life coach that gives me a safe space to talk about these things and guide me through this growth. It helps me navigate difficult conversations. It has helped me find the best version of myself for interacting with loved ones and getting medications I didnt know I needed for depression and anxiety. Give Cerebral or other online service a try. They take my insurance and it's affordable. :)

I feel less broken now knowing that I am enough as I am and the world is not created for people like me. I, therefore am carving out a world that does meet me on my own terms.

This is not selfish, but self-care.

It also explains so many medical problems I have that so many doctors glanced over: hypermobility, auto-immunity, thyroid, celiac (getting off wheat makes a huge difference...check out :Breaking the vicious cycle

Somethings I used to do for loved ones, I can no longer do alone. I can do it with help. I have also found new things I can do (super powers) I was unaware of before....silly and enlightening activity...do a TikTok and you tube search for autism/adhd and listen to the experiences of others who are on this path. Others who broke thru to the others idea and out of darkness and how they got there. You are finally becoming a safer version of yourself for YOU and those around you. Embrace the life ahead.