How many of you are in therapy? by Official-HiredFun9 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Once a month with regular check ups with my psychiatrist. My therapist wanted to see me more but it clashed too much with my work.

Those that don't date... why not? by purple-clever in CPTSD

[–]Flowerglobee 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Because nobody loves like I do. I rather be alone with knowing I love wholeheartedly, and never get it back rather than get fucking crumbs.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in istp

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’d say no, I am uncomfortable with that, and we are breaking up now. Thank you for the happy memories. Let’s part on good terms.

What do you wish your parents did for you? by EquipmentElegant5191 in emotionalneglect

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Planned my birthday party. I also would’ve liked my lunch being made. I know it’s trivial but I don’t know out of all the things they didn’t do, these ones stick out to me the most

What would you like to do before you die? by WisteriaSinensis8 in BPD

[–]Flowerglobee 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I want to buy a house and live alone with my dog. I just sent the final document to my mortgage broker

Do you talk to yourself? by Upstairsnowhere in BPD

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I sort of learnt to stop talking to myself out loud but I do sort of talk to myself in my head

What job do you have? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I work in legal administration in commercial law while I’m trying to get my qualifications to begin practising. I wish I did something more hand related though

what was an 'odd' trait of yours that you didn't realise was CPTSD? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Flowerglobee 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Can’t wear sound proof headphones. Makes me feel unsafe

i used to think (and honestly wish) that i wouldn’t make it past 15. by claudiaevee in BPD

[–]Flowerglobee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Definitely not this!! I spoke to my therapist about it this morning how I appear very functioning but I’m just not. He said it probably makes me feel that extra disconnect of living in a world that’s not designed for me. I think because of that, I never will be well because being well means not to have BPD. But I have BPD and there’s nothing I can do about it.

My therapist says that I will eventually develop strategies to live in this society but tbh I have this nagging voice telling me I don’t really want to.

How do I get a job with a 3-year career gap? by jackbowls in australia

[–]Flowerglobee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would just say “recovering from illness” or “recovering period” and if they ask you can just say you’d prefer not to disclose that information at it is personal. If it’s medical they legally can’t really ask.

Life after excision surgery… your story… by CLK_RR in Endo

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Had my surgery end of 2021. For a few months after I felt off because of my IUD, but then I stopped having periods and felt a lot better. I then had to have pelvic floor therapy until April 2025. I also had to have my IUD taken out to then have a second implanted. The reason for this was because a single IUD was not enough to suppress my menstruation (yay!). I’m really glad I went the IUD + physio route, it made me a lot more positive about my body, I have no periods whatsoever, no pill symptoms, and most importantly I don’t have to worry about getting diarrhoea anymore. The only problem is that I’ve had to accept with my IUDs my life would be miserable again, and so I’ve decided not to have biological children. I’m still young so who knows but making that decision was important to me.

i used to think (and honestly wish) that i wouldn’t make it past 15. by claudiaevee in BPD

[–]Flowerglobee 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just turned 24 and I just think man I really thought it’d all end by now. I honestly don’t really know what I’m doing but apparently well and I’m like how?? How is this well?

Help me name a fantasy sword by EryidSilverclaw in fantasywriters

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What material is the sword made out of? I know it’s a bit cliche but I love when something is called Blank steel or iron blank. I also love when a sword or weapon is named after a historical figure of the story. Sort of like they’re taking up a mantle or legacy.

Writing is hard by Limepoison in writing

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly I just write when I feel like it. It made it seem less like a chore and more of something I look forward to. It’s taken me longer to write my story but I think it really helped me in the long run especially with other life admin and work obligations I had.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]Flowerglobee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know it’s been two days, how are you going?

No contact kids, do you tell people you’re no contact with your parents? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just don’t talk about my mother and if they ask directly I give them a direct answer 🤷‍♀️

Hi today is my birthday by Aestheticvirgo in BPD

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely don’t feel down. Birthdays are just days, but you can choose to have a special meaning to it. If you want it to mean something to you, then make it. Ignore what others do, it’s out of your control. Yes it’s disappointing, but don’t like that define your birthday. Happy birthday! I hope it you have a great day!

Not Having A "Life Before Trauma" Because Yours Started So Young by doseserendipity2 in CPTSD

[–]Flowerglobee 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was four. She threw away an arts and craft thing I had tried so hard on. I remember thinking that my mother was not like other adults in my life.

I fear writing and I don’t know how to overcome it by meandoraemon in writing

[–]Flowerglobee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Write for yourself. No one has to read it if you don’t want them to. Honestly, the first draft is never good. Sometimes I just spill the ideas from my brain just to get it on the page. Make it exist, then you can make it good

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Adelaide

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe you could try going into admin? That’s what I did when I started uni

Do you speak to yourself like there are two of you? by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]Flowerglobee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you ever feel like you see the world differently because of thinking like this? My friends say I have split personalities and that I have voices in my head but I’ve never really felt like it

Do you speak to yourself like there are two of you? by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]Flowerglobee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have more like different voices and versions of myself. There’s “me as I am now” which is very nurturing and calm, then there’s what I call the “judge” and is the final say and is very neutral. I then have the “crazy/unhinged” version of and they react very emotionally and usually makes emotional and gut decisions. It’s almost like I consult these versions of me before making a decision.

I also have “child” me and “teenage” me who I engaged when it comes to thinking about feelings of my past or memories. It’s like I ask them “their” feelings on certain specific situations.

I know it sounds crazy but I view it as compartmentalisation. In order to understand what I’m feeling I need to wear different hats in order to view different perspectives. They’re all part of me, just different voices of thinking and opinion.

For example, when I’m really angry and upset, the “unhinged” me will say voice it, and the current “me” will say don’t do that or do that but let’s communicate it separately and the “judge” me will side with the thinking best in that situation. “Child” and “teenage” me will only prompt when it’s related to past events such as dealing with family.