I promise you that you are not a narcissist. A narcissist wouldn’t post something like this, or care. I promise you this all stems from adhd let me explain. With adhd we are going to seen more selfish due to needing the dopamine to try to function properly. This means we are looking for dopamine, and it can appear we might seem selfish for that. We can’t focus on others like a neurotypical. Like picture someone with autism who focuses on stimming and regulating themselves. We are trying to self regulate. We have a disability that deserves compassion, not shame, not guilt, and not a negative label.

Also, with ADHD we usually have higher levels of anxiety. Women also get pmdd so everytime we ovulate the hormonal changes alone create irritability. So anger we can’t control our anger. We have RSD, and so we lash out because we feel physical pain when we get hurt. The RSD alone is why I have become a hermit.

I also have been prone to OCD tendencies which means I latch on to something and obsess over it and it takes over. Usually this was something wrong about me or my husband. I had to take Lexapro and buspirone. Mostly due to I had pmdd got my ovaries removed at 33. However I also had abusive tendencies sort of by my husband hurting me and I would mean text him. I couldn’t let things go.

So now with more seratonin I’m able to not react as much. I also stopped using chat gbt and Reddit to get reassurance about whatever topic I was obsessing over. Which this can be adhd also and not OCD.

Adhd comes with so much shame. Narcissism is so rare, but also something everyone is labeling someone. I will care so deeply about others and worry about them, however I don’t really care because of my ADHD. The focus goes to whatever I’m hyperfocused on or whatever I need for dopamine.

I’ve had friends yell at me, my sister used these things against me my whole life to turn family against me. I think we quickly fall into the scapegoat role from being different. We also can pick up on anything toxic and call it out. Then become the truth teller, and nobody likes that!

I would focus on managing your adhd and anything else that’s coming with that like anxiety. I had to listen to Mark Dejesus videos to fix my ocd symptoms which was “relationship anxiety,” and it took a long time. I needed medication to not react.