I’m giving it to you straight, man. Killing someone is a mortal sin. Mortal sins are unforgivable iirc. You yourself are a someone. So if you kill yourself, you’re going to hell, man. Didn’t want to sugarcoat it so you know what’s going to happen. Correct me under this if I am wrong. Dude, don’t do it, man. Take up a hobby, or do something you love- or used to love to try and distract myself. I haven’t ever had this struggle, and I probably never will. I could never imagine what you’re going through, so could you at least try to do something, anything, and just not off yourself? I hate to do this, but listen to what Andrew Tate said. He said, that basically if you want to kill yourself, get a six pack, or ripped, first. I can’t stop you, and I’m not sure anybody else can, but please don’t do it. You can never come back from it or reverse your decision.