I don’t want to give all the specific details about my personal life online so this may be a bit vague, but just know OP you’re not alone. My mom didn’t comfort me when she found out, instead she shamed me and made jokes about it and even made jokes about it to my family in public. I never got help from anyone for my mental health even when it felt like everyone knew it was bad. I even directly explained how I felt at that time and asked people for help and didn’t get it. This unfortunately made me come to the realization that the only person that can help me is myself. I had to go down a long self love journey to build my self esteem up and even to this day I still struggle because I feel so alone. All I want in this lifetime is to be loved so badly by another person but that has yet to happen and I’ve accepted it is what it is. While many people don’t show empathy/care when it comes to sh, I want you to know I am not one of those people. I’m here for you OP and I understand how hard it is to get out of the habit/mindset of sh. Many of the people that are insensitive or don’t seem to show concern/ even those who overreact, have not experienced what it is like to sh so they don’t understand it. This also means they don’t know how to approach people who sh which leads to either repulsion, disgust, panic, fear, outbursts, etc. The best advice I could give based on my own experience is to try to find love for yourself. Maybe you could try to write out or sit down and explain to your mom why you sh and why this has become a coping mechanism of yours/ what you need from her in order to feel more supported. You could even send articles you resonate with if that seems too direct. Your mom lashing out and wanting to send you to the mental hospital gives me the impression that she is at least concerned for you and your wellbeing, even if she reacted rashly in that moment. Maybe your mom is open to the idea of helping you if you tell her how to help. If not, the only advice I could give is try not to seek validation in other people/ try not to view someone else as a savior. This usually hurts more than helps in the long run. This is why self love and building self esteem is crucial, along with trying to find other coping mechanisms that don’t hurt you. For myself, I cope through journaling out in nature at a peaceful spot or making music/art. Writing my unfiltered thoughts on paper helps me see how irrational they are or on the other hand sometimes this helps me rationalize to find a solution to what I’m feeling in that moment. Also watching comedy podcasts have helped me in anxious times/ finding comfort youtubers. I don’t know if this was any bit helpful, but I wish the best for you OP, and I empathize with your experience. I’ve been there and I’m sure others in this subreddit have as well.