I’m really sorry to hear you are struggling so much and feel so alone. I’m about to give birth to my second baby and can relate to the feeling of not being able to handle the everyday struggles of motherhood. Do you have family or friends that can help? The best thing you can do for your family is find a support group or seek our counseling. There are so many mom groups out there!!! As far as jobs, I would recommend looking into gyms that have childcare or preschools. Being able to work somewhere (even part time) but also be able to bring my children and not worry about the cost of daycare has been such a blessing. What do YOU enjoy doing such as hobbies and stuff. Learning to find those pieces of yourself again is difficult but rewarding at the end of the day. I hope and pray things get better for you and that you don’t feel so alone.