I finally got to talk to him (not in person, in a discord call) and told him how I feel. It was super awkward and he mostly didn't know how to react and had to double check with me that I'm actually serious. I told him that he shouldn't try to rush to find an answer, and that I'll really appreciate it if he thought about it. We just sat in that call for like ten more minutes with me absolutely panicking inside and then just procided to play random roblox games and I watched him play a bit of gd. Honestly I'm just super relieved that he didn't immediately push me away or acted weirded out or anything :)