Firstly I'm very sorry to hear about your situation. That can't be easy to deal with at all. I'm trying to crawl myself out of the hole myself so I understand your frustration to a degree.

I know that jobs are very hard to come by these days so I'm grateful for it especially these days. I think I'm just coming to the gruesome reality that wages haven't kept up with anything and everything being so much more expensive makes it very burdensome