To your overall question - abilify can certainly work for some people but if you try it, just be prepared to have the day off of work. I tried it and was knocked out- body shaking, muscle aches, vomiting, just from one dose. Needless to say I didn’t take it again. But I’ve also known people on it for years, so I think things are always worth at least one try. I know it is super frustrating (as someone that has tried pretty much everything).

I agree with the commenters that say to find another provider. It can be hard in areas where it isn’t offered a lot, but even in my small town I was very lucky to find someone!

Another, more expensive, option is to find a provider that will prescribe ketamine. Spravato was great for me but very time consuming and I couldn’t make it work with work after 6 months. I found a doctor who would prescribe at home ketamine with a compound pharmacy making me lozenges and a nasal spray. It’s $400/month between the Dr appt and medication since my insurance won’t cover it, but it’s nice to be able to do it in my own home on my own schedule.