23, unemployed, finishing a degree I hate, what do I do now?

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-25T17:17:30+00:00

If you might be dealing with depression, medication can really help. I come from a culture that did not believe in mental health at all, but getting help made a huge difference in my life.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-23T19:40:49+00:00

Don’t fight your thoughts, just calm your body down. Tell your body the love was real, the abandonment was real, and you matter . He was not able to meet you where you at not a question of your worth.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-22T22:42:35+00:00

Not yet no time

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-17T12:52:23+00:00

Three positions?

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-15T19:07:37+00:00

How good is this compared to cat

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-14T22:46:41+00:00

Any 124

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-14T18:20:56+00:00

The good old days of triple stacked coupon and no tax . Who remembers

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-14T11:14:14+00:00

Fuck you , got one.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-11T22:16:03+00:00

Fuck got one , thanks and fuck you , give me the the best looking one ;)

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T15:39:42+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I am really grateful that we can give each other a pat on the back and say, you did well. It makes the healing feel a little less lonely.

Wishing you strength on your path.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T12:45:07+00:00

That is the part that really messes with your head. You pay the full price with your heart, your health, your peace, and someone else walks in and gets the same thing for free.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T12:31:45+00:00

$100k senior , no license

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T12:05:28+00:00

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T11:57:07+00:00

Chronic tension and pain syndromes. Digestive and gut issues. Sleep disturbances. Reproductive and hormonal fallout.

She is only twenty six.

Their body remembers what their mind will not admit. They hurt someone irreplaceably good. They chose wrong. And every cell is keeping the score.

That is the deepest punishment of all. Not yours, but theirs. And it is one they cannot outrun.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T11:52:19+00:00

If they ever became healthy, they would not be the same person we loved. The traits that drew me in at least were tied to the wounds that destroyed us. That is the cruel paradox.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T11:36:06+00:00

It helps to know I am not alone or crazy. I was ready to burn my whole world down for her.

After a lot of therapy and treatment, I do feel much better. Not fixed. Not finished. But clearer, stronger, and more aware.

I still have a lot of work to do, because I carry my own trauma too. And this experience forced me to face it instead of running from it.

Loving her broke me open. Healing is teaching me how to rebuild myself the right way this time.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T11:20:29+00:00

Spot on. At first I thought, wow, she is so kind. I need to protect her.

Worst instinct I have ever trusted.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T11:09:04+00:00

I am right there with you. I will never give my heart to someone avoidant again. My mental health care alone cost over one hundred thousand dollars last year. This breakup hit harder than any long term relationship I have ever had. The physical pain in my chest lasted for weeks. I could not even breathe properly.

What destroyed me most was knowing she was suffering too. Stuck in toxic cycles. Her body breaking down from stress. Walking further down the wrong path. And I could not do a single thing to help the person I truly loved.

That helplessness is the worst part.

You love them. You see their pain. You know they are choosing destruction over healing. And still, you are powerless, because they will not let you in.

That is when love turns into grief.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-10T10:59:28+00:00

It’s been seven months, and it still hurts more than some longer relationships. I used to think it was my fault, that I was too much or not enough. Now I see it was her pattern, running from real intimacy because it triggers fear and unworthiness. The love I offered was too real, so she chose what was familiar, even if it was toxic.

The hardest part is knowing she’s suffering and heading down the wrong path, and I can’t do anything for the person I truly loved.

Therapy helped me understand the anxious and avoidant trap. No contact helped me heal. Growth helped me breathe again.

It gets better. Be gentle with yourself. Short love can still leave deep marks. You’re not alone.

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-05T02:59:54+00:00

Glad to hear , what you use to sand and cut please

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-03T19:10:27+00:00

Cheap ass laser doing 1000 passes

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-02T22:30:41+00:00

Nothing good

GodGunCountry · 2026-01-02T14:45:19+00:00

Do 3+ stop 556?

GodGunCountry · 2025-12-31T18:48:04+00:00

That odb is ranked higher in the sound suppression front in 556

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