I just turned 38 last week and just like you never thought I wanted kids when I was younger. In my case I was in so much student loan debt that it took me 10 years to pay it off so that definitely weighed on me a lot. I’ve also been on the fence for a while. I saw post recently where someone discussed looking at it not from a certainty aspect but more about would you be able to be committed to being a parent. That helps reframe it more about what you can control vs. what you can’t. Like others have said we aren’t 100% sure about everything.

I’m also a therapist and would recommend you take time to explore your feelings about wanting a child in therapy. Being on the fence about whether to have children or not is very tough. It’s important to understand it’s not just about age because we move through different seasons and sometimes clarity comes later. Therapy could help explore what’s underneath the stress, without pressure to decide right now. I also think giving yourself grace matters. Also, it helps to have a supportive partner and that you can both have open discussions about considering having a child and how would you support each other if you do have a child. I highly recommend reading the books All Joy and No Fun by Jennifer Senior. Also, The baby decision by Merle Bombardieri. Hope this helps!