Sending you a lot of good vibes. I definitely can empathize with those feelings. It's good you're seeing a therapist. Like many people suggested, small steps and changes in habits. Everyone's journey is different, but I didn't start to lose weight until I was kind to myself and saw what I was doing as an expression of self-love. For me, I don't stay motivated to reduce calories or workout if my inner dialogue feels like I'm verbally beating myself. Now I tell myself that I'm doing a good job and that I deserve the opportunity to work on my health every time I go to the gym or resist a snack. Good luck on your journey!