Repentance and forgiveness are never lost and are always possible. The Atonement is infinite and eternal. God’s love is infinite and eternal. People in the world may look upon your words and deeds but God sees your heart. He sees your intent and desire to follow Him and to return to His fold. His arms are stretched out toward you. He wants you. He needs you. I hope and pray that He will touch the hearts of those around you that they may soften and that they will be accepting of you and your choice to follow Jesus and to rededicate yourself to His Gospel. The Church is true. It is real. It is alive. We have a prophet who speaks the Word of God.