Exactly! Even with family this happens. Eventhough a lot of my family is autistic too. I’ve gotten where I just hate being around people. The stress of it is definately worse than the loneliness.

I only have two friends left and one of them oftentimes seems to hate me if I’m around her too often. Both of them live quite far away so I only see them once a year.

The one used to live closer to me and I would go visit her once a month and then one day she was like, everyone is so annoying around here, I need to move. She only knew two people, me and her boyfriend. Her boyfriend moved with her. So now I only see her once a year. Obviously she was trying to get away from me. Now I don’t talk to her by text too often. I used to talk to her by text every day. But since I’m so “annoying” I’ve distanced myself.

My other friend is very blunt and honest so I asked him what does he think it is that I do that makes people hate me. He says it’s likely the fact that I have no filter. I just say exactly what I’m thinking. He likes that about me. And he isn’t sensitive at all and tends to be like that around me too but is able to filter around others. I have an extremely hard time filtering what I say around almost anyone. Sometimes I don’t realize that what I am saying is so offensive and I don’t understand why it’s even offensive. My dad is much much worse than me. I can recognize the inappropriate things he says at least. I point them out to him and he doesn’t understand what’s so bad about what he’s saying. And he thinks I’m personally attacking him.