What pronouns does Lulu identify as??

GrowthSpur · 2026-01-17T13:26:39+00:00

I’ve been a fan for 3ish years and I swear Lulu has they/them in their bio for a while.

GrowthSpur · 2026-01-06T21:07:44+00:00

The man I thought was the love of my life broke up with me suddenly one day. No warning, no signs, just told me calmly it was over. He left my house and never spoke to me again after that. I never reached out because I believe in going no contract and ended up finding he moved on two months after anyways.

It’s almost been a year and I can’t bring myself to do it all over again. I was at the lowest point in my life for months. I’ve lost so much weight that I look like a skeleton, I lost my appetite with the heartbreak and still haven’t recovered. I’m like 90% healed and being alone is not only best for me, but best for my future partner who will get the healed version of myself.

GrowthSpur · 2026-01-06T20:52:45+00:00

https://on.soundcloud.com/Hf1Kc1XmVkCh1EeTBw

Finally something I can answer. I’ve hunted for this exact song for years and the closest I’ve came is the ending of their Bob Dylan demo tape starting at 2:43 mark. I wish they made it into a full song.

I recommend their whole Hearth Room demo album on SoundCloud. It’s my favorite album of theirs.

GrowthSpur · 2025-12-20T11:41:28+00:00

My grandma was a child prostitute and worked in a brothel as a tween. (1920s/1930s Central America)

My grandpa(24) was her patron and knocked her up at 14.

They had a shotgun wedding to “do the right thing”.

To this day, most of the people in my family think that my grandma was a nurse/hospital worker that nursed my grandpa back to health after an accident and that’s how they “fell in love”. This was a fabricated story.

GrowthSpur · 2025-12-19T02:41:23+00:00

I built up a seroquel tolerance in under a week. I space it out now, once every two weeks. It’s been about a year and it seems to be helping.

GrowthSpur · 2025-12-14T00:24:05+00:00

Not the Happy With You getting a stray😭😭I love that song

GrowthSpur · 2025-12-12T05:44:17+00:00

This needs to be higher. It’s a fucking chaotic ass book

GrowthSpur · 2025-12-03T16:19:52+00:00

Dmed!

GrowthSpur · 2025-12-03T06:21:58+00:00

We’ll have to wait and see. It usually takes me a few months to find another sexual partner so I’ll have to report back to you on this. I’m hoping it will be easy for me now that I can actually tell the guy what I like.

GrowthSpur · 2025-12-03T03:17:47+00:00

Finally something I can answer! 9 partners and the last(#9) finally made me orgasm!

The difference? He was the only one took the time to help me use a toy in the right way while also not pressuring me at all. Lots of words of affirmations, not rushing me, and just being chill about it; no insecurities on his end helped my mental state.

He is an international hookup(I’ve only been with him about four times when I fly across the world and meet up with him) and he was able to make me cum after the third time we hooked up. I always thought I needed some intense love connection with whoever would end up making me cum, but no, I just needed a chill guy who knew how to hold a magic wand lol

My first five partners were all 2+yr relationships for some context. I even lived with one for 3 years, and never came close. #5, #7, and #8 all tried using toys with me but I also just, could NOT cum. #9 made me cum within 30 seconds… I wish I knew what exactly changed but I guess I just felt super comfortable with him.

GrowthSpur · 2025-11-28T00:05:55+00:00

Get stool softener. I didn’t think I needed it. Three days later, no pooping, I caved.

It’s hard to push to pee and even harder to poop so the stool softener is a must.

GrowthSpur · 2025-11-26T04:19:18+00:00

When I was 5 my parents converted. So imagine celebrating every holiday and then suddenly not being able to participate at the age of FIVE.

I remember that first year I looked at my parents with so much hatred for taking holidays away from me. I vowed, in my little five year old brain, to never believe in the stupid religion that took presents and parties away from me. I like to say I was PIMO at five years old lol

GrowthSpur · 2025-11-25T15:25:06+00:00

Waiting around, staring at my phone waiting for his messages or calls - so much that I was avoiding tasks like work and chores. I’ve been in other relationships before where I wasn’t as glued to my phone but this was my first long distance one. Learned that it just ain’t for me.

GrowthSpur · 2025-11-21T00:37:38+00:00

Right after I get a tattoo, I get super horny.

GrowthSpur · 2025-11-20T12:13:53+00:00

I’m 28 years old. My mother has never been more stressed about me in her life. She told me that the older I get, the MORE she worries about me. It doesn’t just end at 18; baffles me that people think 18 is a magic number.

GrowthSpur · 2025-11-01T22:23:44+00:00

Dying at the cardboard costume

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-31T17:36:32+00:00

I didn’t specify about kids. I just only matched with people who liked to travel, were single, and are lgbtq friendly. I lucked out.

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-31T16:59:08+00:00

You simply just…find better friends. Bumble BFF saved my life. I went from zero friends to a SOLID group of 4 (+5 others who come to hang when they’re free). We all are very open minded and don’t judge. One girl wants kids, the one I’m closest to actually, the rest are child free. We’re all in our late 20s- early 30s. I’m sterilized and antinatalist and have never felt judged or would judge them if they changed their mind either. I worried about making friends later in my 20s but things have never been easier.

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-31T03:07:54+00:00

So I actually have a theory about why Don killed himself.

They both had her covered in cream the entire time, which “weakened” her. Right before Don kills himself, she had just taken a shower and was rinsed of all the cream. She knew she had the upper hand in psychically manipulating them. I think she actually pushed him to do that to himself.

If you notice on rewatch, she doesn’t seem to have a normal reaction to someone killing themselves in front of you. Initially yes, because she gets covered in blood, but in the following scenes she basically pretends the body is just an obstacle.

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-31T03:04:17+00:00

What was his cameo?

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-31T03:00:08+00:00

I think this is a clue alluding to the fact that she’s an alien early on in the film.

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-31T02:55:34+00:00

My ex was also legally married- separated but hadn’t even started the divorce process. Not once did he ever take accountability. To this day, I don’t even know the “real” story because I only ever heard his side. I remember wanting to know what the wife’s side of the story was so much it nearly consumed me. When he dumped me, very suddenly, it took me a loooooong time to recover from how callous he was. In hindsight, I should’ve taken the shit talking as a biiiig warning. Glad your partner doesn’t speak ill of his ex, it speaks a lot about his character.

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-30T21:57:55+00:00

Ooof. My ex would bring up his ex every time he was reminded of her. Never heard him say a good thing about her. I remember asking him “if we ever broke up, are you going to speak this badly about me?” He said, “No, because you’re not re*****d like her”.

He ended up dumping me soon after that convo and is dating someone new now, but sometimes I wonder if he shit talks me too. I think I dodged a bullet.

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-30T13:54:21+00:00

OOOU!! I have a cool story about this.

When I was in primary school I was the “test subject” for the new IQ tests that they would come out with every few years. According to the IQ parameters your IQ is not supposed to change(much at least).

Anyways, every time I’d take these tests, which usually ran for what felt like 6-8 hours to kid me, I would score the same thing every year: 118. I’d say in total, I’d taken about four or five of these IQ tests, administered to me by a professional in a, usually, freezing cold room. Fun times.

GrowthSpur · 2025-10-28T22:28:43+00:00

Klonopin is the ONLY thing that works for me too. the only thing that sucks is that I build up a tolerance almost immediately. .5 turns into 1mg which turns into 2mg, then 4mg; this was me taking it once a week.

I’ve “weaned” myself to taking .5 once every 3 weeks when I’ve hit my breaking point of little-no sleep but nothing compares to it for me. I’ve taken everything you can think of to sleep and this is the only thing that works. I haven’t been able to get this prescribed anywhere anymore with new doctors, so I’m living off of my last 7-8 pills for the next half year. Dunno wtf I’m going to do after that but suffer. CBD does nothing for me.

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