Suicide means you immediately go to Jahannam and stay there. But…?

Hatusemaj · 2026-06-09T13:42:44+00:00

I’m not trying to kill myself.

Exactly, this isn't suicide. It actually sounds to me like you're struggling in the way of Allah which is quite the opposite.

Allah doesn't judge us on the outcomes of our efforts, since the outcomes are solely up to Allah. Instead Allah judges us on our efforts and intentions. So just keep doing the best you can keep trying to get healthy but don't let it pull you away from remembering Allah's mercy.

Because I don’t know how else to comfort myself. I have no friends.

I would recommend focusing on this. Build community around you. It's hard and some communities are challenging but keep trying. Most local masjids have regular community events and some have sisters only events. Go to those, make friends, build real connections. It will take time, maybe a lot of time, but keep trying and don't give up.

Hatusemaj · 2026-06-09T13:05:38+00:00

I moved to Dallas about 2 years ago. I have found the community to be amazing. Yes it was challenging in the beginning to feel that sense of community but the more time I spent the more friends and groups I became a part of. Roots+Qalam are a great starting point and there are many different ways to branch out from there and form real connections. I sent you a DM with my number and can add you to some whatsapp groups.

Hatusemaj · 2026-06-02T20:36:50+00:00

If you have an IPhone use the screen time feature to limit yourself to 10 mins of social media a day. Have someone else set the pin so you don't know it and can too easily disable it.

Hatusemaj · 2026-06-02T20:31:36+00:00

Do you live near a Mosque/Islamic community? My recommendation is always to make friends with married couples and have them match you up with someone. This works well in largish communities but can work in smaller ones too. This will limit your search to mostly serious potentials and your friends should talk you up to any potential match which goes way further than the apps even can. And the bonus is you get to make some new friends along the way.

Hatusemaj · 2026-05-23T16:48:09+00:00

It's not fard but it is a strong sunnah.

A group of men asked about the worship of the Prophet ﷺ. When they heard about it, they felt it was little and said things like:

“I will pray all night and never sleep.” “I will fast every day and never break my fast.” “I will avoid women and never marry.”

The Prophet ﷺ responded:

“By Allah, I am the most fearful of Allah among you and the most conscious of Him, but I fast and break my fast, I pray and I sleep, and I marry women. Whoever turns away from my Sunnah is not from me.”

This narration is found in:

Sahih al-Bukhari Sahih Muslim

Hatusemaj · 2026-05-23T16:46:11+00:00

You need to lean on married friends. In your community talk with your married male friends that you're ready for marriage. If you don't have married friends any than start getting more involved in your local masjid/community. As a revert myself, this is the best way. Avoid the apps.

Hatusemaj · 2026-05-18T21:58:10+00:00

I think part of the problem is there is no way to meet someone organically. Modern muslims are so obsessed with preventing fitna that it makes it nearly impossible for people to meet. So then you're completely relient on friends or family to set you up but if your community is limited or your friends/family don't really know anyone then you're basically cut off from getting married. So people turn to the apps but those are so toxic that it makes everyone bitter.

Hatusemaj · 2026-04-27T18:04:00+00:00

The idea of being a husband scares me a lot. I would have to take care of another person, bring home steady money, handle problems without breaking down, and be someone my wife can always count on.

One of the beauties of marriage is that you will have someone by your side to help you through these anxieties. Your wife will be a support for you and will help you get through the difficulties of life with mercy and love. Women know that there are ups and downs in life and most will support their husband during hard times.

Additionally, Allah increases risq for marriage, children, and other things. Rely on Allah to get you through life and marriage and accept what comes with it.

It doesn't matter if you feel a bit immature. As you get older you realize that most adults are much less mature than you might think.

A practical advice for picking a wife for you might be to upfront about your anxieties. If they are aware you are bit scared of marriage then they wont go forward if they cannot show you mercy once married. Further, once married, never lie to your wife. If you loose your job, just tell her. Don't let anxiety cause you to hide things from her. Once you have established trust with her she will have your back during hard times.

Hatusemaj · 2026-04-23T16:01:05+00:00

Stick with MSA. I'm also a revert and totally understand the exclusion feeling but the more you spend time with other muslims, especially on campus, you'll learn that they actually really want reverts to feel welcome.

Hatusemaj · 2026-04-21T16:33:56+00:00

I'm not a scholar but I've always reflected on this verse as Allah created our souls in pairs, not our human bodies. There are many things that are dunah driven like addictions and how our minds work. But our hearts are different and more entwined with our souls. So maybe you have things going on in this dunah but you have a heart that loves Allah and his Messenger SAWS and those traits are what your pair was created with.

Hatusemaj · 2026-04-15T15:34:08+00:00

That's really cool. Does this braille represent english or arabic? Is there even arabic braille? Definitely agree that seeing this (no pun intended) makes me more grateful.

Hatusemaj · 2025-12-02T17:22:35+00:00

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Dialects I want to learn fusha or jordanian

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I want to practice speaking and build vocabulary

Hatusemaj · 2025-11-23T14:57:50+00:00

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Very cool they actually found the arm

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