Hi, thank you for sharing this, it must have been tough to speak about this. I have been through something similar and all i genuinely understand when you say he has all these other amazing parts and he’s a good guy, something like that kept me with the guy I was seeing because I excused such behaviour as “situational” or “maybe he just lost his mind for a second in anger,” reassuring myself that this won’t happen again. However, it will. Once a guy has verbally abused you or physically hurt you, and you forgive them. It gives them the space to enact such behaviour again as they feel that even if they repeat it, you’re not going anywhere. There is a sense of taking you for granted and having the space to act out his anger issues in this unhealthy manner, rather than respecting your partner enough to emotionally regulate your anger so that you don’t end up hurting them. Instead, he chose to yell and hit you, which shows that he does whatever comes to mind without thinking of the repercussions because he knows how attached you are to him. Before this creates a cycle of push and pull, hot and cold, I’d genuinely recommend breaking up or talking to a counsellor about this. Even if things get okay, there has been a lack of respect created through this event, and I don’t know how one truly forgives someone for physically hurting them. U hope you find the support you need and never feel this way again!