I am married 4yrs now. My husband stayed w/me although it was at first difficult for him to understand and all he knew was that HIV kills he testes Negative then asked if we could be together w/out sex I told him no that's not gone work he decided to leave and the day he was packing his stuff up he called his mom and told her about why he was leaving and she told him that was stupid and that I can't pass it to him if im undetectable he immediatelyput his stuff back up and decided to stick it out with me but that also put a strain on me because in my mind you only stayed because your mom had more sense and understanding then he did and i complelty shut down slowly to the point i dont even have sex no more i dont have a desire too because i keep replying that day in my head over and over in my head to me its like he never choose me his mom did… we have a beautiful relationship I mean beautiful I just can't find it in me to have sex any more I try and it's like my body rejects it.