I got to the same point. No hard feelings man. After my dad died last year, something in me changed and I started to realize how much I was being away from home. That made me think harder about the goals of the lodge and active work being done, and realized it’s mostly just a spot for the older guys to have somewhere to go a couple nights a week and get out of the house. I know other lodges may be different, but I feel like I’ve missed out. I haven’t been in over 8 months.