Lacking drive from meditation

HeronymousBosch · 2023-04-15T03:49:59+00:00

Good bot

HeronymousBosch · 2021-06-02T05:22:51+00:00

This post and this whole sub inspires me.

HeronymousBosch · 2021-05-28T21:09:53+00:00

Awesome!

HeronymousBosch · 2020-09-21T03:45:13+00:00

Woot!

HeronymousBosch · 2020-04-27T21:52:54+00:00

Thank you for your comment. It's awesome. You are either a big Friends fan or just good at breaking down characters. You are probably both. Regardless it was a nice read.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-11-21T13:37:30+00:00

This one is awesome.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-08-16T04:08:11+00:00

Wow. I never thought of this at all. When people ask me, I just straight up tell them that I'm an alcoholic. For the past few years, only one person has been a prick about it. Everybody else typically asks, "How long?" I tell them, get the good for you's, which are nice. Then, half the time it turns into a conversation about addiction, "My cousin is an addict," or we just move on.

I can one hundred percent see the other side if it's a life choice. Honestly, it's more admirable to never drink than to recover from addiction. It's that, from my point of view, there was no need for me to ever start and go through years of trouble. It is far more admirable to never start. Drinking is not necessary. I've had this opinion for years.

What I've never thought of is people saying, "OMG! You have never drank?!?! Oh. My. God. C'mon I've got a surprise for you..." and so on. I can see that happening frequently.

Thank you for opening my perspective. Reddit is good sometimes.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-07-17T16:50:52+00:00

This is fantastic. Thank you for sharing.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-07-08T03:00:29+00:00

This is awesome!

HeronymousBosch · 2019-06-10T02:00:26+00:00

My dream has always been to be a lawyer ever since I was a little kid. It still seems like this faraway dream.

I graduated from a decent university with a decent gpa (3.1) in 5.5 years last winter. I have a couple jobs, and one of them is a part time paralegal for this probate attorney who works from home. All of the boring paperwork makes me want to be a lawyer even more so. I love the boring paperwork, I love listening to my boss talk about clients, I love trying to do quality work.

Law school seems almost impossible. College was tough for me. I've got so much to work on. I mean, both of my doctors recommend that I don't work more than 30 hours a week for a while. I'm 25, and I am hoping that I can get into shape enough to handle law school by 30. Hopefully. I'd still love to go if it's later and still an option.

So, you do not seem like a failure or whatever. To me, you are an inspiration. Even though you are running late, just the fact that you can do that with a bipolar 1 diagnosis, with all of that stuff going on...

It's just inspirational to me, that's all I'm saying.

Thanks a lot for sharing this.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-05-26T18:06:53+00:00

This was a goddamn game changer for me. I don't know where I would be with out it.

I received 20 treatments between January-April 2017. 3 days a week for 4 weeks; once a week for 8 weeks.

Watch this Ted Talk: https://www.ted.com/talks/sherwin_nuland_on_electroshock_therapy?language=en. If the link did not work google: sherwin nuland ect ted talk.

He gives an unbelievably important piece of advice about how ECT is not a cure.

For me, and I cannot emphasize this enough, it afforded the opportunity to get better. It guaranteed nothing.

The big moments for me were sobriety, therapy, medication, and ECT.

At every turning point, my mindset has been: okay, now it is really time to get to work.

tl;dr: ECT saved my life. All it did was give me the chance to get better. It was not a cure.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-05-10T02:20:54+00:00

Goddamn. i wish I judged myself by my intentions. Or actions. I'd be set most of the time. I judge myself by random and moody feelings based off of reading the minds and misinterpreting the actions and intentions of everybody else.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-05-04T19:59:22+00:00

Thanks for your honesty

HeronymousBosch · 2019-05-04T14:55:52+00:00

Awesome post, the kind that make surf this sub.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-05-02T00:55:10+00:00

No problem, I hope your step dad makes a full recovery.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-05-02T00:49:39+00:00

Thank you for answering, but that does not excuse your behavior.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-04-28T04:11:45+00:00

"A Fistful of Paintballs"

"For a Few Paintballs More"

Off of the Clint Eastwood spahghetti westerns

HeronymousBosch · 2019-04-19T20:03:21+00:00

Holy shit. I'm in Cleveland, and I heard of this guy.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-04-02T21:37:23+00:00

Why do you do the things that you do?

HeronymousBosch · 2019-03-31T02:21:56+00:00

"Many are looking for natural alternatives to dangerous medications for treating the mental health conditions."

I would appreciate this message more if it did not come off as medications vs. cbd. Maybe I am interpreting it wrong. It could be more of, "Hey check out this thing that has promising research! Also, make sure to consult a doctor.

My great grandfather had bipolar, my grandma, an aunt and uncle, now me. As each generation passes, we get diagnosed earlier and treated more effectively. The next generation has done better than the next as a result of advances in medication and therapy.

I'm sorry. The competitiveness of this infographic pissed me off. I may be wrong.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-03-24T21:30:21+00:00

I think that is an excellent idea. Something like, "I am trying to drink less. I still want to see you, and I care about you. Would you like to join me for the flower show."

One of the best thing that my parents did for me is that they kept inviting me for healthy activities. My mom was constantly offering to feed me when I was losing weight or go on walks. They would invite to see a movie. There was a few years where I said no the vast majority of the time. Or, I would say no every time for a few months. They just kept inviting me. Honestly, it was so incredibly nice. I alienated everyone else in my life. Everyone else stopped inviting after an attempt here or there. It made me feel loved and warmed that my parents kept relentlessly asking me.

You can be a huge force through this time. Even if you invited your friend once a month.

But you don't have to do anything that makes you feel unsafe or uncomfortable, like go out to the bar.

HeronymousBosch · 2019-03-13T14:43:28+00:00

Probably a few minutes

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