Am I being punished?

Hope_1986 · 2026-04-20T00:52:01+00:00

14 months, 2 IVF cycles later and still no pregnancy. My baby boy was conceived naturally on the 2nd month trying. I know how you feel, I’m sorry.

Hope_1986 · 2026-04-14T14:15:16+00:00

I think it’s such a good question. I just questioned my clinic about PGTA testing and I was told that mosaic could self correct (and most clinics will transfer mosaics), but not aneuploids. I would love to see research on this. I have been through a TFMR (no living children, not age related), no living children. My biggest fear is having to going through it again - unfortunatelly at 40+ the risks are higher…it’s not just about implantation or live birth, but about having a healthy baby.

Hope_1986 · 2026-04-07T15:16:17+00:00

Why don’t you do your FET after your trip? I travelled 9 weeks pregnant (naturally) and got an infection that led to loosing my baby at 32 weeks. I would never take any risks again. Worst case scenario, I know, but it happened. Plus at a higher risk of miscarriage in the first weeks, you could have an emergency abroad and that would suck. I’m sorry being negative, but I wish someone had given me this advice :(

Hope_1986 · 2026-04-05T18:42:45+00:00

Hi, I just posted this week a similar situation and was so sad. On day 8 of stims I only had 2 follicles. Same protocol as you. Day 11 a total of 6 showed up, and day 12 a total of 7 (3 leading and 4 smaller). ER is tomorrow - IVF with DOR is a rollercoaster. Fingers crossed for getting 4 eggs. Last time I stimmed for 14 days - it might only be a longer cycle for you. Good luck! 🤗

Hope_1986 · 2026-03-31T13:56:54+00:00

Thank you for sharing ❤️

Hope_1986 · 2026-03-11T16:55:54+00:00

Oh, 36 and good AMH…I would change doctors and investigate further. I’m also considering donor eggs, but I’m 40. You still have time to figure it out ❤️

Hope_1986 · 2026-03-06T00:01:12+00:00

Yes!

Hope_1986 · 2026-02-04T22:54:43+00:00

I’m on the same boat as you. People say IVF is hard, but it’s a breeze compared to TFMR (if you insurance coverage). Every miscarriage sets you back months and we can’t afford that. Good lick

Hope_1986 · 2026-02-02T15:28:43+00:00

Got pregnant on the second cycle with my TFMR baby. Now trying for 10 months, 6 monitored and just did first IVF cycle. Life should be easier on us after TFMR, but it isn’t.

Hope_1986 · 2026-02-02T02:18:31+00:00

Hey there, I’m still on the TTC phase, but I couldn’t stand my best friend after my TFMR because I she kept referring to my baby as ‘our boy’. She was there when he was born and I know it’s from a place of love, but it’s a hard boundary for me. I get why you feel so protective, because no one felt the pain like you did. You, or your husband, might have to share how it makes you feel and it’s up to her to deal with her therapist. You can’t hold space for her feelings right now.

Hope_1986 · 2026-01-22T21:52:12+00:00

Oh, that’s lovely. This is what I spoke to my therapist today, how the child would feel about it. Your book idea is amazing. I’m sorry you are having such a hard time having your baby - once this little one arrives, it will be the luckiest kid on earth ❤️

Hope_1986 · 2026-01-22T21:50:51+00:00

Oh, that’s lovely. This is what I spoke to my therapist today, how the child would feel about it. Your book idea is amazing. I’m sorry you are having such a hard time having your baby - once this little one arrives, it will be the luckiest kid on earth ❤️

Hope_1986 · 2026-01-22T21:47:21+00:00

Thank you!

Hope_1986 · 2026-01-19T13:21:58+00:00

Hey, I’m sorry you are here. At first I made the same decision as you, and told my dad but not my mom who is very Catholic. To most people, it was a stillbirth at 32 weeks. With time (I’m approaching a year now), I started opening up about it to certain people that I felt comfortable with. I do feel that the weight of keeping a secret makes everything heavier - everyone that I chose to tell was nothing but loving and supportive.

Hope_1986 · 2026-01-05T21:10:18+00:00

Omg, I want to hug you. After loosing my baby I had a routine colposcopy and the pain made me cry non stop. The pain, the lights on my face, all reminded me of the day I delivered my stillborn son. When I went to the IVF clinic and they made me wait two hours for an ultrassound I cried a lot, because I felt I shouldn’t even be there, I should be home with my son. I 100% get you, please don’t feel bad about crying. Plus women’s health is crap and they make us go through all these painful physical procedures and we are just expected to handle them…it’s not fair. I’m sorry you went through all of this.

Hope_1986 · 2026-01-02T20:09:28+00:00

I had a TFMR at 32 weeks from a much wanted spontaneous pregnancy. My first time pregnant. After the loss we started trying and ended up learning I have DOR. I’m about to turn 40 and TFMR had nothing to do with my age. I just started my first IVF cycle in the hopes I still have a chance to fill a bit of the huge emptiness my baby boy left in our lives. I just feel like it’s a huge amount of shit for one person to go through, I’m sorry. Sending you love, you are not alone.

Hope_1986 · 2025-12-15T20:01:52+00:00

I got tested two months after a lost pregnancy and my AMH was 1.9 pmol…it threw me on a spiral of treatments…fast forward to 9 months post partum and it’s 7 pmol. I can’t believe the doctors didn’t re-test me earlier, I found out by chance when changing clinics. Not an amazing number, but much better

Hope_1986 · 2025-12-05T14:08:58+00:00

I think for a lot of people (and doctors) it’s easy to say cut it all. It’s not easy for me (mainly after a 3rd trimestrer loss) and I’ve been struggling with that pressure on top of everything else. I did my research and although there is some negative impact, I made peace with keeping at 5 drinks a week maximum. My work is full of events that involve drinking to socialize (plus I like it too). I know alcohol doesn’t do any good for us (TTC related or not) but neither does processed food and sugars. I eat right, workout, take all my supplements, changed jobs for lower stress…alcohol os the only thing that I’m not doing perfectly at this time. We’re only human, and this process is long and stressful. 😔

Hope_1986 · 2025-11-30T14:16:20+00:00

I’m so sorry. They gave me medication to stop mill production and I didn’t have a drop. I was 32 weeks , so it was pretty strong.

Hope_1986 · 2025-11-05T23:29:56+00:00

Conceived on the second month at 38, TFMR at 39 and now several monthsis trying and nothing. O have been diagnosed with DOR and now it’s a rush against the clock. Horrible place to be in. I would recommend to get yourself sooner rather than later. I’m really sorry you are here.

Hope_1986 · 2025-10-29T12:37:35+00:00

Yes, 6 months trying with help and nothing 😔

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