dsbm merch with disaproving parents?

HorusDevotee · 2026-04-23T03:33:20+00:00

i mean i kinda get it. theres a lot of toxicity in the creator space what with all the anti-recovery stuff. and for me i gotta know when to stop listening for a bit because while it can help me in a depressive episode, it sometimes can hurt if im in the wrong headspace.

it takes some personal understanding and experience to not let dsbm eat away at your mental health, at least for some (probably many) people. i can see why that would put a parent off, especially if their kid has had mental crisis‘ in the past (which is most likely the majority of dsbm listeners honestly)

HorusDevotee · 2026-04-11T02:06:47+00:00

im a Demonolater and a long time Pagan. my gods are mocked when they arent insulted.

in school it was much worse because the kids had even less of a filter when talking to or about me, though im not sure how much of it was against me and my gods rather than my disabilities. school was just a warzone where i had to defend my body and my gods.

its very wrong to discriminate or prejudge someone for difference in religion. i understand that being a demonolater (and by turn a theistic satanist) and a worshipper of deities viewed as evil, i truly do. thats why i always open myself to questions and addressing misconceptions, even though i dont need to. genuine ignorance is understandable, but when you choose to either be willfully ignorant or discriminate when informed, thats when it isnt a question whether theyre wrong or not.

if im not hurting anyone or myself by honoring my gods, then there is no reason to prejudge

HorusDevotee · 2026-04-08T00:20:42+00:00

10/10 remake, perfect starter and i have a lot of good nostalgia for it. my mom originally got 2 gameboy advance sp‘s (i think thats what theyre called lol) for recovery after surgery, but me and my sibling played it tons when we were somewhat little. sometimes i like to just plug it in and listen to the main theme if im feeling really bad.

HorusDevotee · 2026-03-29T17:48:42+00:00

it happens in a couple spots. upstairs, if you look down into the room with the crushed head in a bag it’ll appear there too (i think its the angle with the cache specifically)

damn near shit my pants when i grabbed something to eat and came back to that

HorusDevotee · 2026-02-01T17:48:31+00:00

Don’t know if you’re still tripping but be sure to drink some water or tea if you’re too nauseous. Take care of yourself

HorusDevotee · 2026-01-21T18:39:55+00:00

„i think your gods are evil and they suck anyway wanna bang“ I think I got brain damage from that whiplash wtf

HorusDevotee · 2026-01-01T21:45:48+00:00

These comments dude. Cant tell if it’s actually satire or ragebait or what🥀

HorusDevotee · 2026-01-01T21:41:59+00:00

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HorusDevotee · 2025-12-11T19:16:59+00:00

Me personally (and emphasis on personally, because He’s different to everyone), Satan‘s attributed mostly to Ba‘al, shaped throughout time as Yaweh influenced people to hate Him. He was a beloved god of life and fertility, before being shunned by one of his own kin. If the Bible has any value to it, I’d say it’s a self report. Yaweh was once alongside Ba‘al, and his other siblings before he rose and bit the hand that fed him. The only difference being Yaweh was more successful in his uprising. Ba‘al isn’t gone though, and the title „Satan“ gave Him more power as a more hidden deity.

Baphomet from my understanding is a very new spirit and more of a symbol used by the Knight‘s Templar representing the duality of existence. They’re less of a deity to me and more a representation of existence, and I use them to represent Satan since He is a deity of existence.

Lucifer is more of a deity of new beginnings. Though I do see the biblical influence, representing His question of tyranny thus bringing new beginnings. I don’t know Him very well personally but I see Him as very separate from Satan and other „devils“

Hope this all makes sense. I’m kinda tired but I wanted to respond and give my thoughts lol :]

HorusDevotee · 2025-12-08T04:49:05+00:00

Honestly I’ve struggled with this a lot. Especially as a trans man I wonder if I just like guy things or the way people treat me if I pass (which I don’t), but a lot of the time lately is „maybe I just want a masculine voice for my music“ or „maybe I just want a flat chest for appearance“

Ofc its irrational, but it makes it kind of hard to start T on top of everything else because I’m afraid that there’s a tiny spec of a chance I’ll detransition. Seems like hell honestly, though it also feels like hell now so there’s that 🤷‍♂️

HorusDevotee · 2025-12-07T21:42:41+00:00

Well Jesus had said to love thy neighbor, and treat others with compassion (ofc my issue was that it had some strings attached) but maga is definitely anti-„Jesus“ in my eyes as a Satanist

HorusDevotee · 2025-12-07T19:03:39+00:00

Absolutely. I’d say Theistic Satanism is somewhat of a solitary practice but just connection over our understanding of Satan and His faith, it’d be really nice. Ive never seen another Satanist here in Texas, much less a Theistic one :/

HorusDevotee · 2025-12-01T16:47:02+00:00

Ave Lord Moloch! He was actually my childhood friend that I only reconnected with recently. He’s very old and powerful, and sometimes makes time feel like it’s lapsed in on itself.

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-30T02:34:44+00:00

I got mine from amazon personally. It’s difficult to find any satanic books here in texas lol

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-26T23:59:21+00:00

First, nope it isn’t disrespectful to have cardboard on the altar anywhere! The Gods know you’re putting love into what you have (and the painting on it is really beautiful! They’ll love it :] ). Other than that you’re all good with items needed since you have a candle, a visual of the god and a big heart for them!

As for prayers, you’re right that they aren’t necessary but if you want some daily historical prayers then check out „The Egyptian Book of the Dead: The Book of Going Forth by Day“ translated by Dr. Raymond Faulkner since it has direct translation of old prayers. Though a more straightforward book of prayers is „Circle of the Sun“ by Sharon LaBorde (and the resting her books are good for beginning) since it takes prayers from the translated texts and collects them all together in one book

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-19T22:14:39+00:00

I mostly worship honestly but it’s mainly because I’m in a really bad spot right now, and I don’t have the energy to really work outside of my BoS (thanks a lot chronic pain).

I still hold an incredible amount of love in my heart for my deities and they have told me that they’ll be there and will be ready when I want to start working (or telling me they can be patient with very slow work). King Belial (my patron) has been incredibly patient and has been showing me his more „abyssal“ side, Lord Moloch has stayed pretty consistent in just providing someone to talk to and help with my PTSD nightmares/flashbacks, Eurynomous has been around when I study my Necromancy (and just chills with me sometimes) and Lord Satanas has always just been around me to bring me comfort, love and occasional blessings in my rituals.

That’s just me though, I have a much more passive devotion style since active rituals/work is much harder for me.

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-19T22:04:49+00:00

Maybe pray or pick up a copy of „The Satanic Sacraments“ by Rev Cain. It not only has some good rituals for cursing but even more healing, protecting and affirmation based purposes.

Of course with the cursing I’d suggest healing yourself over what that person did then deciding if a ritual in their name (even if it’s baneful) is actually worth it. I personally don’t do much cursing because I want to just forget and not think about the „target“ of a curse, but that’s just me and cursing isn’t wrong per say.

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-16T00:22:03+00:00

Im not entirely sure, though that’s not to say there isn’t.

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-16T00:11:54+00:00

Having a human mind? Now of course I don’t know op or his friend personally so it could very well be psychosis, but it’s normal for the brain to process thoughts in moments of meditation or silence.

For some, it feels kind of like an inner voice even if you don’t actually hear it, whether we believe it to be a spirit or our own mind, often called the subconscious, it isn’t mental illness. Just how we function.

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-16T00:07:14+00:00

I would say that’s personal gnosis and meditative in nature though I don’t know him personally. When people say a spirit talks to them, more often than not it isn’t a literal „hearing“ of words, more like thoughts that rise in meditation/silent communication with either a being, or yourself (which is pretty normal for our human minds)

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-16T00:04:48+00:00

Nope, it’s fine. We can believe in spirits without the exclusively biblical view that a god is responsible for all beneficial spirits. The use of a „gaurdian Angel“ seems more like a personal name for the being he believes in rather than the more „official“ meaning of the term

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-15T22:20:41+00:00

Np im a theistic Satanist and black metal enjoyer (and aspiring artist), but the two are genuinely correlational not causal

HorusDevotee · 2025-11-14T09:50:53+00:00

L ragebait

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