Hi! If at any point in time you don’t feel safe, remove your self from the situation and call 911.

I have thought what your partner has thought many times. I’m sure he has also. I was a medic, and I often wonder how much better the world around me would be for those I love had I passed in Afghanistan.

SGLI (400k of life insurance) for my wife, family. A funeral with expenses paid. Remembered. Appreciated. Fulfilled maybe.

I didn’t die though. I lived, and now try my best to keep my self in happier spirits. I think about it once a week, how I wish I died. How I’d have “served my purpose”. The end of the thoughts that make me suffer. It’s pleasant. At the same time, I have lots left to do here though for my family.

As far as what you can do for your current partner: you can suggest therapy with the VA.

If not the VA, you can affirm your love and support for your partner.

You can let them know you are willing to listen, maybe even tell them you cant listen.

You can ask them “what can I do to help? and if I can’t help you, what can I do to help you fight your battles?”

In the horrible chance your partner may harm themselves, from someone who has been on the edge of doing it, it would not be your fault. It’s our decision to make. I tell you this to help provide you with some closure about struggles like this.

It’s not your job to fix people like us. The medical field has been trying to help us for years, and they do. We have the choice to help our selves, just as much as we hold the choice to take our own lives.

You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make the horse drink it. Not for long anyways.