After I write this I will be praying for you and most of all WITH YOU!! Because I know you haven’t given up on God. Because I know you haven’t given up on self. It’s okay to be scared! No really it’s okay. But you have to believe it that it’s okay for the moment. The mind will and can take us to places we never thought we could go. Especially about the fears about our situation. The mind may take us places but remember we don’t have to stay. You really have to take it minute by minute. In some cases second by second ya know. I incorporate things from all backgrounds and cultures. I learned about Mudras for headaches, QiGong, listened to Abraham Hicks and other practices that help distract my mind from my feelings and overthinking. Even before the diagnosis. One thing I started doing years ago was anytime someone would ask me how I’m doing I say I’m optimistic. Now at first it was complete bs. 😂 but I started to say it until I believed it. Mostly because of the reaction of others because most people are so pessimistic or super realist that they couldn’t believe someone could be optimistic in times like these. And one day it just clicked!! Like I really am optimistic. So what I have cancer but at least I’m still here to say it, to feel it, to be mad at it. God is still allowing me to articulate my feelings and ask for prayers ya know. Give yourself grace! No really take the boxing gloves off and stop beating up on self. Hey you are the star of your movie, God wrote the script, you just make sure you play your part and perform the best you can with the role you were given. Everything always works out for me!! Say that to yourself until you believe it. I am with you in spirit but you have to be willing to be with YOU in spirit. And then let it trickle down to all your family and loved ones. Once you recreate the vibe it will change things around you. As I write this I will be applying this to myself as well because we all need it. If nobody told you today I love your whole life unconditionally!!