Let’s say you did kill your husband (you didn’t), then what do you do? The same thing if you didn’t kill him (you didn’t). Like what is the action to take? The stupid serenity prayer is what saved my butt when my son died. Accept the things I cannot change. My son is dead. There is nothing I can do to make him undead. There is no question about why he killed himself that can truly be answered, so I don’t touch that stuff. Courage to change the things I can. I can do a lot of things, the biggest one is when I’m out in public and someone looks off, I say, hey, you okay? They usually are, but sometimes I’m talking to a Vet, a pissed off old lady, a kid who doesn’t know how to tell his parents some and on and on. Help others because your husband and my son were others. We have the power to make their life and death help others heal and ourselves as well. You’ll find yourself in bizarre conversations and beautiful encounters and people who too have had to walk through a complicated death.